skz sickfics(bxb????)

seungjin-stay with me

ship: seungmin x hyunjin

idol au

genre: angst, 

Tw: self-harming, blood, fainting

seungmin's Pov:

we were at practice and like another day han and hyunjin arguing again......"Chan bring me the tissues" as soon as those words left our cat's mouth hyunjin was froze at his place before collapsing like a drama queen he is. I really love him so much he was the one who showed me the meaning of life. we have been dating for a year now our relationship is official, and many stays support us while there are still some useless whores who don't have better things to do then hating on people but recently, I noticed hyunjin growing distant from me. did I do something wrong????but I didn't take things seriously Afterall I trust him with all my life maybe a tight schedule.

I was interrupted by someone patting me when I turned my gaze up, I saw Chan Hyung smiling softly at me, he told me were about to start practicing and in minutes everyone was in a serious mood and doing everything professionally. 

As the practice continued, I noticed Hyunjin's gaze drifting away from me more often than not. His smiles seemed forced, his laughter hollow. It was as if he was there, but not really there. The distance between us seemed to grow with each passing day, and it was suffocating me.

One day, after practice, I saw a lot of comments on our latest post the words were sharp and hurtful. "You're not good enough for him," it read, "You're just dragging him down." The words echoed in my mind, amplifying my insecurities. I felt a familiar urge creeping up on me, an urge I thought I had left behind. But this time, it was stronger, more insistent.

I tried to brush it off, to focus on the positive. But the seed of doubt had been planted. Every glance Hyunjin shared with someone else, every laugh he had that didn't include me, it all just added fuel to the fire. I found myself questioning everything - our relationship, my self-worth, my existence.

...One day, after a particularly grueling practice, Hyunjin and I were the last ones left in the studio. He was unusually quiet, his gaze distant. I tried to lighten the mood, cracking a joke about our leader's latest antics. But Hyunjin didn't laugh. Instead, he turned to me with a serious look on his face.

"Seungmin," he began, his voice barely above a whisper. "I think... I think we need to take a break."

His words hit me like a freight train. A break? Why? Had I done something wrong? I felt my heart pounding in my chest as I asked him why.

"It's just...," he hesitated, looking anywhere but at me. "I feel like you're too dependent on me. It's not healthy. You need to learn to stand on your own."

His words, though probably meant to be helpful, felt like a personal attack. I felt my insecurities creeping back, the old demons I thought I had conquered resurfacing. His words echoed in my mind, each repetition like a fresh cut. I was too dependent. I wasn't good enough. I was a burden.

And just like that, I found myself spiraling back into the darkness...

hyunjin' Pov

 I hate to see him like this, but it is part of the plan our one-year anniversary is close so me and ji are setting up Surprise for him I hope we didn't go too far the other members know about the surprise but not the prank part if they found out especially Minho, he will air fry me. I know seungmin is sensitive, but this prank was crucial to our plan. after telling him about the breakup I saw the tear in his eye, and I couldn't help but to hug him so I got out of the studio before I could I went to our dorm to talk to han about our next move.

no one's Pov:

seungmin after hearing those words felt his heart shatter he felt the urge to feel pain it was so pleasurable and he packed his stuff and went to the dorm still fueled by thoughts he didn't even bother to look at the members before walking to his room locking the door he found his blade he used to cut himself with until he found hyunjin well now he is gone what does he have left- nothing . but to make him self dirty again scared him  was very disgusted by himself maybe this was it ..............

no one's Pov

while han and hyunjin were giggling and talking about their next move on hyunjin's beloved bf who is probably ending himself the makane happened to walk past hearing their talk and the mention of his best friend sengumin he went to them and asked about everything

"What about seungmin" i.n said with his voice slightly raised.

"Chill bro nothing much" jisung said.

"don't fucking tell me to chill so what did u do to seungmin" i.n said clearly angry.

"nothing much we just pulled a prank telling him that i am breaking up with him" hyunjin explained.

what kind of prank are u fucking out your mind jeongin said before running to seungmin's room to knock

meanwhile seungmin was on the floor crying his eyes out blood pooling around him he hated himself maybe he deserved more or more or to die he kept getting flash backs of all the hate comments sent by those fucking haters. 

seungmin please open the door i.n's voice echoed the dorm alarming everyone by this time everyone was at the door while Chan was stumbling around the dorm to find the spare key to seungmin's room hyunjin was so alarmed the youngest never locked his door if it wasn't to you know harm himself, he banged on the door.

"baby, please open the door I am so sorry it's me hyunjin"

but those words got no response by this time every members tears were threatening fell Chan came back with the key and  hyunjin opened the door and took in the sight of his bf half lifeless with blood everywhere he quickly hugged him.

"seungmin baby look at me say something i love you to much to lose you stay with me" hyunjin pleaded by now crying.

"why did u broke up with me" was the last word that left seungmin's mouth before he fainted hyunjin carried him to the car everyone following. 

if anyone wants a part 2 let me know there will probably be one