The Paths We Choose

Chapter 5 (lisa pov)

    The sky was becoming dark, but there was a bit of sunset left when we stepped outside to the beautiful patio that look over miles of grass and trees. Adora took of the hot tub cover and turned it on. The patio was the filled with flashing colors from the hot tub. Just then I was hit with another flashback.

    "Come on Elizabeth your dad has texted multiple times something is wrong we have to leave" her words cut in and out. I was gone a few drinks in and I could barely stand. The party lights flashing bright colors. It was so mesmerizing, "just have fun Liana stop being a buzz kill"  I slurred. I went to another room but just then whatever was in my drink hit me. I was collapsing falling side to side everything was blurry a men who followed me trapped me between his arms kissing around my neck. My mind said fight him off but my arms wouldn't listen to any demands. I couldn't stop I couldn't stop any of it.

     *present* "Stop. Stop get off me" fear and tears hit my face. "Lisa look at me I'm here okay. Everything's okay. Lisa!"  The yell snapped me back. I was just in a backyard my eyes met Adora's, god she seemed terrified, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" Liana stood in front of me with her arms on my shoulders and told me everything was fine. But I didn't feel fine. I felt embarrassed, I knew I shouldn't have came.

     I pushed the sliding door open and entered the house, telling the girls I would be back. I just needed a moment. I rushed to the sink and covered my face in freezing cold water. I wanted to feel numb but it wasn't enough. I grabbed ice from the freezer and pressed them on my face.

I wanted the feeling gone I wanted it all to stop I wanted it to burn, to hurt. It wasn't enough. The knife stared at me, telling me to just do it. Giving in, I grabbed it and started slicing at my thumb over the same spot. Pain, I finally felt the pain.

"What the fuck" the way this man appeared I'm beginning to think I'm being tracked. he grabbed the knife and threw it into the sink, "He grabbed my hand turned on the water and ran it under while he looked for a bandage in a close by drawer, "I don't need your help I got this" he didn't look at me he was busy wrapping my thumb, "clearly not. Why? Why would you do this to yourself?" I was not going to explain myself to him I didn't need to, "it's nothing" I said. "It's not nothing" while he said this he pulled up his arm sleeve to show several cut marks up his arm, "I thought these were nothing too"

     I reached my hand out and grazed them. He instantly clenched and I could tell he was deciding if he should let me continue but he didn't budge instead he closed his eyes as I continued to follow along the lines. He opened his eyes the brown hue had me drawn. I dropped my fingers from his arm and just sat on the counter with him standing so close I could feel the warmth radiating from him. Every breath came loud and slow. Then the softness in his eyes adjusting and they went cold again.

     He cleaned me up and bandaged my thumb he told me he would be right back he then merged with a bathing suit, "what are you doing" I said. "Come one Catherine. Let's get into the hot tub" he said with a smile. Catherine was the main character in wuthering heights. It just dawned on me we still didn't know each others names. I was trying to decide if I like the nickname, but his kindness momentarily made the sting go away, and for that I owe him.

     "Lets do it"