The Agents

Chapter 7

Shikha

I always question myself will I be able to do this?, to do that?, am i capable of this?, will i fit in this?. Always running from everything, from everyone, even to my self, I never realised until yesterday when we completed the task, i was hell nervous what if I fell?, what if I didn't complete the task?, will chief regret choosing me?.
Always blame myself, not believe in myself, always making decisions that lend me in a fucked up situation.

And what if I really made a fucked up decision to be a spy?, this is not easy, nothing is easy, fuck. What if I disappoint myself and the entire team?. Until yesterday we three completed the task and I am more than satisfied. And i realise if I don't then who will believe in me. so I believe in me that I can do anything.

We reached the office room after our morning workout session and the seen shocked us chief lying on floor in a pain, he hit his butt so hard and aahgnya ma'am is standing awkwardly, what happened here?.

"What happened chief?" Parv bhaiya (brother) asked.
Yeah we kind of developed a bond and now Trisha no not Trisha i and kunja call him bhaiya (brother).
"Nothing just lost the balance" chief reply standing, glaring at aahgnya ma'am.
What is actually happening here?, Did ma'am pushed him? No how can it be these two don't even talk if it's not related to work.

"Aap khade khade gir gaye (you fell while standing)" Trisha asks chief glared at Trisha, we other surface our laugh.

"Jor se lagi h kya (did it hit you hard)"? Srisha di asked showing concern and we all brust out loughing. Srisha di know what is she doing.

"Enough" chief yelled. We all are trying to control our smile that coming to our lips.

"Okay now stop it and congrats to the three of you of completing the first task" aahgnya ma'am says with small and warm smile.
"Congrats buddies" parv bhaiya wishes us patting Trisha's shoulder. Srisha di too wished us.

" Okay so now you guys have a new task" aahgnya ma'am says.

"So excited" srisha di asks and we nodded our head.

"Date and time will tell you later"chief inform.

"Okay so let's have breakfast first I'm starving" parv bhaiya eagerly.

"But first take a bath you all stink" aahgnya ma'am says making face and parv bhaiya run to hug her. Their bond is like a brother and sister parv bhaiya always irritating her and getting scold by her but the care they have for each other.

Ma'am hide befind chief, seeing chief's glare he turn and run to hug srisha di, these two they behave like long lost enemy but the bond these two have like Tom and Jerry, can't live with each other but can't live without each other.

Di run towards the washroom and bhaiya turn towards me a smrik playing on his lips.
"Noo noo"
He nods.

I too ran for my health.

We all four are Sweety but today parv bhaiya did extra work out because he eat sweets the previous day, being a actor you have to maintain your body, can't count extra calories for a day.

Stripping my clothes I stood under the shower, I see myself in the middle size mirror this bathroom have.

The scars on my whole body and a fresh scars nail mark on my left arm, i don't feel disgusting by these scars, this scream that I'm not weak, I'm strong,  It's not easy to normalise everything after what happened, I used to feel disgusting by myself that how weak and helpless I am but i changed this weakness and helpless in to my biggest strength. I am not weak anymore.