Break my heart again

Pinky Promise

Another schoolyear began. I wasn't at my ususal place in the train. I sat with Harry, Ron and Hermione. Also in the carriage I was with them. We walked into the great Hall and seated at the Griffindore table. 

Dumbledore held his usual wellcoming speach. Then he told us about the Triwizard tournament. Also about Beauxbatons and Durmstrang. "Now lets all wellcome the students from Beauxbatons!" Dumbledore said. The doors opened and alot of girls came in. Blue birds flew around them. They made a curtsies and the boys looked at them with heart eyes. 

All girls just shook their heads. "And now the boys from Durmstrang!" Again the doors opened. A bunch of boys came in with a fire show. I wasn't amazed at all. But all other girls were. Now the boys shook their heads. 

As both schools sat down and their Headmasters too, Dumbledore said some rules about the Triwizard tournament. "You need to be 17, to take part in this game!" "RUBISH!" The twins shouted. "Don't be silly. People died in this game! Its better how it is!" I said. 

We left the great hall. "Wait! Noelle!" I turned around. Mattheo was standing infront of me. "Oh, hey." I still had a big crush on him. "Well, I wanted to ask you, how you are." He said and rubbed his neck. "I am good, how about you?" "Yea fine." "Well, how is he?" I asked Mattheo. "You mean Theodore? Not good. I think you should talk with him. He needs you." 

"I need him too." "Then go talk to him. It destroys both of you." He said. He looked at me with his beautiful brown eyes. "Thank you Matty. I will look for him." I hugged him thight. I breathed in his scent. He smelled so good. He hugged me thighter. "I will wait for you." He whispered. Maybe he thought i didn't hear him. But I did. "We see each other tomorrow Matty." 

I left him standing in the great hall. I don't even know, why I called him Matty, but I liked the nickname. And I think he liked that too.

I walked up the stairs of the astronomy tower, just to find Theodore standing at the railing, looking at the stars and smoking a cigarette. I walked up to him. "Theo?" He turned around. Again, dark circles were under his eyes. "Noelle." He looked at me with teary eyes. "Omg, are you okay?" I wanted to hug him, but I didn't knew if he wanted to, so I didn't. 

"I am fine." "Mattheo thinks you are not and I think so too. What happened to you?" He sat down on a chair and looked at me. "Well, my father tortures me, Noelle. Everytime he is angy, he uses the cruciatus curse on me, or cuts me with his knife." He told me. 

I got tears in my eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?" "He started when summer break began." "But you could have wrote me a letter." "It was to dangerous! Don't you understand!" I got away a few steps. "I am so sorry. I didn't mean to shout at you." "It's okay. Don't be sorry. Can you show me, where he hurted you?" He let his cigarette fall down and took of his shirt. He turned around, as the got off the chair. 

"Omg. Theodore..." I couldn't say anything more. He put back on his shirt and turned around again. I stood infornt of him. I just hugged him thight. "I am so sorry." I whispered. Tears were flooding down my face. "I am sorry, for everything, but I had to do it. I missed you so much Noelle." 

"I missed you too Theodore. I missed you so so so much." We let go of each other. "Promise me to never ever in Merlins world doing that to me ever again." I told him. "I will never ever do that again. I promise." "Pinky promise?" "Pinky promise." "I will help you out of this Theodore." "You can't help me, Noelle." "Sure. Next summer you will just come with me."

"I don't think that your parents will like that." "I will just talk with Molly about it. I think she would let you stay over. Don't worry." He let out a deep breath. "I can't do it, Noelle. He would chace after me. My father hates that I was friends with you. Thats the reason, why I broke up the contact with you. And I will do it again."

"What! But you promised! Theo!" "Noelle, there is no other chance. I have to. I am forced to!" "You can get out of this!" "No! I can't! Don't you understand. God." "You broke the promise..." "And I am very sorry for that, but I need to do that." And with that he left the astronomy tower. I ran after him. "You are such a dick! I hate you! You don't need to be like your family!" I shouted after him. 

"Stop! Shut the fuck up and leave me alone!" "No! I won't let you do that again! I won't leave you!" We were now in the hallway. Some Slytherins came up to us. Among them was Mattheo. "I won't let you." I said. I tried to grab his hand, but he pushed me away. I landed on the floor. 

"Leave me alone, I don't need you. And I am fine." "Are you listening to your self, Theodore? You are not fine. I know that. You barely sleep anymore. Don't you get it? This all is not good for you! It never was."  "Don't tell me whats good for me or not. You don't even know how I fell or what happens at home. You don't know how it feels. You have no family!" 

I felt a lump forming in my throat. I knew exactly what it felt like to be treated badly by your family. "You think I don't know that? You don't know how my adoptive parents treated me when I was with them for 3 years before I came to live with the Weasleys!" "But it was never that bad. Don't blame them. You are the problem."

I saw in his eyes, that he didn't mean any word he said. He is forced to say that. Mattheo looked at me. "You don't mean what you say, Theodore. I know you." "No! You don't." I was standing infront of Theodore. "Then look me in the eyes, and say it again. Else I won't belive any word you said."  

He couldn't even look me in the eyes. But then, his head wanderd up a bit. His brown eyes met mine. "You are the problem. You always are the problem and always will be." Something in his tone, made me belive these words. Something in my body told me, that he was right. I felt a tear falling down my cheeks.

I turned around and left. Again, I lost him. Even though he promised to never do that. He did. He broke his promise. And I thought, no, I belived he would come back as my best friend. I was so naive.