Break my heart again

trusting

It's been weeks since I last talked with Theodore. I've heared from Mattheo that he isn't doing good at the moment. But what should I do? He doesn't want to be friends with me. I can barley imagine how his father is. I don't know much about him. He didn't like talking about his father. 

Well, I was on my way to charms, when Harry came over to me. "Hey Noelle." "Oh, hey Harry. Everything fine?" "Yea, um I just wanted to know if you are okay. Sirius said you might not seem good." "Oh, I am fine, Harry. Don't worry about me. You should worry about yourself. You don't know how dangerous the Triwizard Tournament is." 

"I know, Ron doesn't even talk with me. He thinks I've put my name in the cup on purpose." "Oh well he is such a dump. I will talk with him about that." "You don't need to. So you are fine? Sure?" "I am very sure about that Harry. Please, Dad and you don't need to worry about me. I am doing good." 

"Noelle, we need to go to charms." Mattheo stood next to me and gave Harry a death stare. "Don't look at him like that. He is my cousin." "I'm sorry, bad habit." He grabbed my hand. "We need to go." "Harry, we see each other later. I have to go now. And I think you too." I hugged him tight. "Be careful." 

"You too Noelle." "I will." Mattheo and I walked into charms and sat down. We grabbed our books and professor Flitwick began to talk about a new spell. "What did Harry want?" I looked at the brown haired boy next to me. "Just wanted to know, if I'm okay. You know, because of him." 

I looked over at Theodore at the same moment he looked at me. I smiled slightly at him, but all he gave me was a cold look. But something in his eyes told me that somehow he wasn't serious. I admitted it, I missed my best friend. But what should I do if he doesn't want to have anything more to do with me? I can't run after him like a stupid dog forever. He still meant a lot to me. I often asked Mattheo how Theodore was doing. 

You could tell Mattheo didn't like talking about it. But I cared too much about my ex-best friend to just ignore him like he seemed to do all the time. Speaking of Mattheo, he and I have been getting closer and closer lately. 

He means a lot to me too, he always has since I fell in love with him. Sometimes I have the feeling that maybe he feels the same way about me as I do about him. But I'm afraid of destroying what's happening right now. We always get stupid looks from the Griffindores and Slytherins, but we don't care. I didn't care back then either, when I was still roaming the corridors with Theodore. 

Charms was over and the weekend began. I'd been waiting for it all week. This weekend we finally got to go to Hogsmead again. "Noelle, would you go to Hogsmead with me tomorrow?" Mattheo asked me. I looked at him with a smile on my lips. "I'd love to." "So that's a date then?" I couldn't believe it.

He was actually asking me on a date. "Yes, it looks like it is." "I'm glad to hear that, so I'll see you tomorrow at 11 a.m.?" I nodded. "Good, I have to go, I'll see you." With that, he left me. I couldn't believe it myself at the time. He was really asking me. I grinned all the way back to the common room. But on the way there I bumped into Flint and his entourage. 

"Well Black. Riddle sure took the shit out of you." I looked at him. "What do you mean?" "You don't seriously think Mattheo would go out with you." "Why wouldn't he?" I asked, unsure if I even wanted to know the answer. "Mattheo and Theodore have a bet going. Mattheo is playing you, taking your virginity and then dumping you. 

As if you were stupid enough to think he really liked you. Nobody likes you." "Don't listen to him Noelle!" Mattheo shouted at me, but it was already too late. I turned round to face him. "Are you kidding me? I was hoping I could trust you!"

"You can believe me, none of this is true!" "Oh yes, and where's the proof! I really thought I could trust you. Everyone was right. A Riddle remains and is a Riddle. I should never have fallen in love with you. How stupid could I have been?" 

He looked at me in amazement. "You fell in love with me." "Of course stupid. Stupid enough that you didn't realise it yourself. That was your fucking plan all along. I should never have made friends with you Slytherins. I knew you'd all be the same." Mattheo came up to me and tried to take my hand, but I shook it away. "Don't you dare touch me!" I shouted at him. By now, a group had formed around us. 

Among them were Harry, Ron, Hermione and the twins. "Please, let me explain." "There's nothing to explain Mattheo. Don't you get it!" "You really believe Flint and his people over me?" I remained silent. I didn't care. But they were all the same, weren't they? After all, I lost Theodore too. He was just as much of an arse. I turned round and just left. "No! Stay where you are!" "Leave me alone Mattheo." I ran into the common room, on to my dormitory and threw myself on my bed. I stayed there for the rest of the day.