Grand-Slam

the beginning

There is a very brief mention of thoughts of abortion so if you are not comfortable with that please skip it!
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"Shit" I mumbled out, leaning forward to rest my head in my hands. I let out a shaky sigh as I sat in the silent bathroom, nothing but my breaths echoing throughout the room.

Bo and I had only been together for less than a year. We met through Santiago Espinal. My roommate in University is his cousin so naturally I met him at a family party, which led to us attending his game together, that led to me meeting Bo.

Despite him being 5 years older than me, we clicked instantly and had a lot of common interests. Despite his shyness, Bo had taken me on a couple dates and it didn't take long for us to make things official. While we had only been together for 7 months, I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. Bo is everything i've ever wanted in a person. He knew me better than anyone else and the thought of losing what we have was eating me alive.

Everything was going great. Our relationship was so good. I felt my stomach turn sour as I stared at the word "positive" digitally written on the test, my lips pulled into a frown as I stared it down.

Bo and I had danced around the idea of our future. While I knew exactly what I wanted, and I assumed he felt the same, we still didn't talk about the future too much as it felt too early to discuss concrete life plans. I didn't even know if he wanted kids. Of course late night conversations led to sweet comments about a little one running around, but never anything serious. We're still young, me especially, and Bo is at the peak of his career with the Blue Jays. Why would he want to start a family now? Before we've even hit our one year mark.

I felt myself panic as my phone lit up indicating that I had a call. "Elisa Espinal" flashed across the screen.

I picked up her call with a shaky hand before answering, "hey"

"Hey, did you take it yet? What did it say?" she rushed out.

"I'm so scared El" I whimpered out, allowing tears to roll down my cheeks.

Without confirming or denying her question, I could tell she knew what the answer was. She was really my only friend in Toronto as I grew up in a different city and just happened to room with her by chance in University. We became friends pretty quickly and she has come to be one of the most important people in my life. And she could read me easier than anyone else.

"Oh. Oh, Halle it's okay. You know i'm here for you no matter what, we'll figure it out okay?" She said reassuringly.

"Yea" I choked out before going silent.

"Are you coming home or are you gonna stay with Bo for the night?" she asked.

"I'll probably stay here and try to figure something out, don't wait up for me yea?" I said quietly.

"Yea okay, we'll talk tomorrow" she said sympathetically.

After hanging up the phone I weighed my options.

After my parent's messy divorce, I had no contact with either of them. We never had the best relationship as a whole because of how much they hated each other.

They were the kind of parents who tried to stay together for their kid but only made it worse because they fought all the time. Their attempts to hold their marriage together took a lot of attention away from me and I grew up resenting them for it. I would never be able to forget the nights I spent under the covers of my bed, hands covering my ears in an attempt to drown out the unbearable screaming that bounced off the walls, down the hallway and echoing into my bedroom. When I left for University, they finally got divorced but we shared some harsh words with each other before I left and haven't spoken since. I had to learn to navigate the world my parents never prepared me for, and Bo was always there to guide me when I felt lost.