What I need | Billie Eilish

Six

Billie's view
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I don't really know how I feel about Selina. I mean, I shouldn't or... I don't want to feel anything. As much as I hate to admit it, thinking about her with someone else makes my stomach twist with jealousy.

Though, I can't really read her, she's not exactly an open book. Am I just a hook up to her? Why do I even want to be seen as more than that?

I had fun with her last week at my house. She's just really fucking cool to hang out with. I still barely know her, but I feel like I've known her for longer. She can be intimidating and a little scary, but she's not so bad once you get to know her. Now that I think about it, that was the first time I saw her genuinely smiling and laughing.

It's almost as if there's something she's hiding; she's a mystery, but I want to figure her out.

I don't know what it is about her that drives me crazy.

Maybe it's that stupid, seductive smirk. Or her long hair and tall muscular figure.

Maybe it's the way she teases me. It's nice to have someone match my energy.

Or the way she listens to me intently, even when I'm rambling. 

I love the way she shares a common passion with music like me. I want to know more about her.

Fuck, this is bad.

Anyways, we've been texting every day since. Actually, I'm texting her right now:

                                          Selina

Btw you left your garage door unlocked

                                        stop acting like my mom 😭
Just doing my job

you've officially been promoted to friend!

Sure the hickey on your neck is real friendly

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"What are you smiling about?" Zoe walks into the room.

"Nothing, just saw something funny." I reply, still looking at my phone on the couch.

"Ok, then show me."

"Uh, why?"

"Alright, who is it? First the hickey now this?" Zoe ask with her eyebrows raised.

Yeahhh I forgot to hide it, though I don't think I could even if I tried.

"I'll tell you eventually, just not right now." I say, now finally looking up.

She sighs, "Ok whatever, you're still going to the party tonight, right? I don't want to go alone."

"Oh, that's tonight?"

Apparently there's this party Zoe was invited to because she's knows the person who's hosting it. Which, I believe, is also their birthday. Zoe says it's going to be chill, and I don't have to worry about hiding. Hopefully, she's right I'm feeling lazy today, but I haven't gone out in awhile, so why not?

"Girl, come on. Get up and get ready!" She giggles, while pulling me up.

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