Her Silent Screams

||HER SILENT ECHOES OF PAIN||

There's mention of blood, trauma and suffering mentioned below read at your own risk.

ADESH

Why is Satan sitting in hell playing with me? Every time I think I've got everything figured out, something else comes crashing down. It's like I am trying to build a sandcastle at the beach - and just when I think it's perfect, a wave sweeps in and washes it all away. No matter how hard I try to stay on track, this Satan throws curveballs that leave me wondering if I'll ever catch a break. Is this just how it goes?

Here I am sitting with 'My Angel' in my lap, hitting my head to the header board of my bed in frustration. Wondering how I will clean her up. Forget cleaning up. I can't even see her without clothes. At least not when she's asleep and under the effect of medicines. Truth to be told: I don't have the audacity to remove her clothes and wipe her body with a warm towel in this condition. 'Yeah! because you don't want to see that overpowering orange in her eyes'. My subconscious mocked me and I agreed because I really don't want to see her in that state ever again. 'Never say ever, Adesh' my mind again told me and I told it to shut up.

She stirs in her sleep clutching her hands on my shirt more tightly. Something shifts in my chest because of this. I don't know but it make more protective of her. Even in her unconscious state she's clinging to me like I'm her lifeline. Does she trust me that much this short span of time? I couldn't help but wonder what demons are haunting her dreams, what nightmares are plaguing her mind? I don't know, but her vulnerability is doing something to me. Something that I can't pinpoint. Something, I can't describe. It warms my heart and at the same time it tugged into my heartstrings also. What if it's an illusion, a dream, a mirage? What if I am asleep and I open my eyes and she'll disappear?

I shook my head and made those unwanted thoughts come to halt. Even if it's a dream I want to live it peacefully. Even if it's an illusion I want to see it with my wide open eyes. Even if it's a mirage then I want to feel it so that I can think about it again and again when I close my eyes. I shift on the bed and lie her on it peacefully, between the pillows, so she can still feel the warmth. I stand up and rub my hands on my neck, wondering what I can do now?

I came out of the thoughts when I heard the sound of a bell ringing in the whole house. Who can come here at this time? I ran towards the main door, irritated, and opened it. As soon as I opened the door my expression immediately changed to cold ones then bemused then slightly happy but I didn't show it on my face. The Witch was standing on my door eyeing me weirdly with Idhayan and what the fuck?.... Nid's? Who's also eyeing me up and down with raised eyebrows. But leave it. I didn't think that I'd ever be happy by seeing this Witch in front of my eyes. I hear voice of Nid's,

Nid's: "Bro! What are you wearing?" To which Witch replied,

Aarvi: "Exactly" and I see my brother shooting daggers in her direction by glaring at her. As I take that Witch's hand abruptly and take her in. I feel my brother's glare to shift on me, but I ignore it for now and utter,

Adesh: "Lets talk about it afterwards or ask Idhayan about it, but first..." I didn't get to complete my sentence when she take out her hand from my hold and speaks,

Aarvi: "Leave everything! Tell me where is Vaa... " I then rub my face harshly and almost shout,

Adesh: "For the hell's sake stop cutting me off, let me speak! She's inside, sleeping, in my room, I hope this fucker Idhayan told you the rest and I want your help on changing her clothes and make her comfortable, and now, if you want to help then fucking help or fuck off!" I hear the distant voices of Nid's and Idhayan. Nid's calling me 'Bhai' in aggressive tone as if warning me about my tone and Idhayan telling me 'I ain't a fucker'. I glare at both of them to zip their mouth and then glare at Witch, she stares at me and speaks,