Her Silent Screams

||THE LONGING SEPERATION||

VAANI

Life is never ending chaos, right? It made us roam in circles and circles and then let us stay in the illusion. Illusion we believe and mistake as our beautiful reality. The fake reality which makes us believe that we belong here. Being here with Adesh, I forgot that there's a world outside these four walls which is waiting for me. His presence has a way of making everything else fade away, leaving only the two of us in our own little bubble of happiness. But as the sun begins to rise and the sky turns a deep shade of white and blue, I'm reminded that soon I'll have to return to reality. Responsibilities, chores, and the expectations of others will once again fill my days.

These days I forgot that this is not my life. This is just another illusion I myself created to just get some amount of happiness. Just when Aarvi called, my little bubble of that happiness also bursted.

I have to go. My dream, my passion, my dark life which is filled with nightmares and my mechanical presence is waiting for me. Even if I want to stay with Adesh, I can't. Because eventually the darkness of my life will swallow him also. I came out of my thoughts as I hear him speaking,

Adesh: "What do you mean,'Angel'? Where do you have to go? I mean look at you, you're not healed yet?" I stared at him and smiled shortly and wrote the text in his phone that I've to do preparations for my upcoming exhibition. To which he replied,

Adesh: "Tell me about it! I'll handle everything. You're not in good condition for now. Till then my team will handle everything." I shake my head in no. Denying his offer. I'm an independent woman. I don't need anyone till their presence is very necessary. I can handle my chaos by myself only. Like I used to handle it till now. He again tried to say something.

Adesh: "But 'Angel' you're not able to... ..."
I cut his sentence showing my palm to him and again wrote a text,

"You don't have to take pressure from my workload, Adesh. I am capable of doing everything if I want. So please let me leave."

To which he just stares at me furrowing his eyebrows. No wonder he's devilishly handsome but I can't let him enter my life to mess with his already settled life. Even if I want him in my life still then I won't let him in. Because if I do that then he'll only see the sharp broken pieces of mine. And if he touches those pieces of mine then he'll bleed. And I don't want to see him bleeding like me, that too because of me only. I don't know why but one thing is clear in my mind that I don't want to see him hurt or anything.

We just stand and stare at each other for a few minutes. Me with my chaotic mind and him with his confusion that is clearly shown in his face. Just as he's about to say something, we heard a voice. Voice of his mother.

Aunty: "Breakfast is ready! Ab kya bedroom mein hi basna hai kya tum dono ko... 45 minutes ho gaye mujhe vahaan se nikle hue... na vo bandar bahar nikla or na hi Vaani beta tum bahar nikli... 5 minute mein dono dining pe na dikhe to ab mein andar aa jaungi."

[Breakfast is ready! Now, are you both planning to set up camp in the bedroom or what? It's been a good 45 minutes since I left... Neither did that monkey come out nor did Vaani, dear, step outside... If you two don't show up in the dining area in the next 5 minutes, I'll just come inside.]

I suppress my smile after listening to her. I like his mother. She's very cool. I hear Adesh scoff at her sentence and see him narrowing his eyes at me. After that he speaks.

Adesh: "Wait till I get some funny information on you.. And at that time you'll be scoffing and I'll be smiling." I shake my head at that. Telling him that he won't be getting any information on me. How could he get anything on me if there's nothing I enjoyed in my life? Still I just smile at him and sign towards the restroom telling him that I'm going to freshen up. He just nodded at me.