War of the Wave

• Chapter 3 Nami •

I stood frozen before the hospital. My eyes scanned the concrete walls. My brain still remembered every crack in the wall next to the entrance. Those doors that had scattered my world years back. I hated this place, ever since I lost my dad here. I didn't want to come here anymore. It is a nightmare, an honest nightmare. But it was where Kai was.. So for his birthday I just had to forget my sorrow and be at his side. That's what I did.

But here I was once again, frozen in front of that stupid building. That nasty smell of odd bodily fluids and excretions that have been washed away with industrial quantities of high power chemical cleaning agents. I hated it.

My grip on her hand got heavier, fuck I didn't want to do this again. But at the same time I did, I had been missing him. But seeing him like that.. Those scars on his face that were still freshly cut. It crushed me every time. Shivers running down my spine as I thought of that image with my father . This stupid place has consumed too many hours of my life already. But here I was once again.

'Are you ready to go inside? I've noticed you have been staring at the entrance for a while... It's okay If you aren't ready. I understand that it is a scary place. I don't know what happened here to you. The fear on your face is evident to me.' I jumped up at the sudden noise, bringing me out of my nasty memory.

'I..' A soft sigh escaped my mouth. With a firm grip on my wrist, she swung me closer to her. Her touch was so warm and soft.. It made me feel better, more confident.

'You aren't alone. Those feelings in there.' She pointed at my forehead. 'Those have to change, make room for better feelings. You aren't alone anymore... You have me. You have Sorin. We won't ever. And listen to me, won't ever leave you.' A small tear escaped my eye as I repeated the words in my head. When did I get so lucky to invite her into my life?

I held her tightly, wrapping my arms around her neck in a warm embrace. 'T-thank you.' As my confidence grew once again, I nodded subtly.. 'We - I can go in now.' Kamiko gave a slight nod, continuing the walk towards the large doors.

The inside was different from what I remembered, It had changed. Small hearts, vibrant colors of red and pink filled the once hateful white concrete walls. Valentine's Day I forgot about the fact it used to be a happy memory, now it was just a night of haunting nightmares. I had always spent it with Sorin and Kai. But that changed the night I lost him. Never had I hated Valentine's day that much before. It wasn't the same as it used to be. I missed my best friends by my side. Every rose I saw reminded me of him..

She spoke up. 'Any idea where we need to go?' I nodded slightly while my feet carried me towards the familiar elevator.

'We need to get to the second floor.. room 201.' Pushing the call button for the elevator a familiar feeling came crawling down at me. My consciousness itches at the recall of these sudden memories. A comforting voice filled my head. 'He will be fine sweetheart. He is strong, just like you kiddo.' The words had hit me harder than they should. Daryun..

He had always been more to me than just "My dad's best friend" but from that day... He became my second dad. My safe place from home. The abrupt sound of the elevator snapped me back to reality.

Kamiko took me closer as we stepped inside the elevator. 'Would you like to tell me how he was? Kai.' A smile was planted on her face. I don't know how. But I felt like I could tell her everything. Everything she asked me. Even my deepest fears if she would ask me. Her chin resting on top of my head. I shared the depths of my darkest, forgotten emotions.

'He.. He was my sea. Chased my worst demons away. He always had his way with words. I loved that about him. When I was younger I always looked up at him, watching him as he passed the hallway. Going to his football matches and cheering at every goal. We became best friends as fast as I could blink. We were closer than ever.' A tear escaped my eye as I recalled the memories of the past.

'He sounds like an amazing friend, someone very special to you.' She smiled, placing a small kiss on my forehead.

'He is... I miss him, more than I want to admit. I know that Sorin already knows that I miss him. But I've never been able to admit it to him directly.' Tears slowly make their way down my cheek. My heart started to hurt, a burning itching pain slowly traveling to my whole body.

'That is alright isn't it? Admitting to love is a difficult part of life. But it is a good thing.' Placing her thump on my cheek, using it to wipe away my wandering tears. I had no idea how she even wanted to be here with me. I felt bad, I had dragged her into my difficult life. But she still wanted to join it anyway. I nodded slightly as her latest words finally made their way in my head.

The doors of the elevator opened once again, my eyes scanned the familiar hallway. Stepping out, we made our way to his room. I stopped in front of his door. 'Are you sure that you want to do this with me?' She didn't even know him. She knew me for less than twenty-four hours and yet, here she was. Standing next to me as I was about to walk in the hospital room of my best friend.

'Yes I do, I am here to support you. And I don't have anything else important to do.' She smiled at me and squeezed my hand.

'Okay...' My hand found its way on the doorknob. A familiar clicking noise filled my ears as I pushed the door open. The room was empty.

The.. Room was empty? W-what? N-No? Stepping back I read the name card on the door once again. Kai Abbot. He should be here! He should be! A dark cloud began to flood my mind. The cold, sterile smell of the room filled my noice, the room completely silent was it not for my own voice.

Kamiko stepped inside the room, looking around at what got me in this broken state. 'There has to be a reason this happened, Nami.' I heard her softly. I looked up at her, her face was filled with concern and worry but I couldn't focus anymore. She tried comforting me.

My hands started shaking, I couldn't breathe anymore. It felt like every breath I took got sucked out of me right away. I fell onto my knees hurting myself in the process. Everything started to hurt more. Where was he? W-was he gone? Is§ that why Daryun was here? No. No it shouldn't be. He could never. Could he?

My whole world scattered around me, I couldn't lose him. Not now, not ever. My vision got vague. Everything around me got blurred out. I could only see the empty bed in front of me. Where he should be laying, but he wasn't. My mind ran a thousand miles as I couldn't make sense of it all.

I felt hands on me, warm female hands. A female voice filled with concern tried to reach me, tried to comfort me. But it had no effect. My mind was already sunken too deep in this locked stage. I was a wreck. Tears streaming down my face, my body locked in place.

My eyes shut down, I couldn't control it. I did not want to. But my body made the decision for me. A dark cloud overwhelmed me and then it stopped. My body shutting itself down completely.