Chapter 11
Walnut
I got my freedom before the audition by yelling to a certain shameful older brother , but when I saw that guy who comes in late for work and drinks almost every day , I often wondered if I had been deceived by him. I tend to go to bed at almost 2 o'clock while reading and rehearsing my script, but that madman doesn't come home until then . The first day I got my freedom , I slept in a different room that was not his room, but every time when I wake up , i find myself in his bed . 🥰
After that , I just slept in his bed , but I couldn't get used to the habit of me sleeping cramped up like a doll . It's good not to touch it , but why the hell did I have to wrap my arm around my stomach , the wounded part ? I still felt a throbbing pain when I did any strenuous movements, so I always felt this pain when I open my eyes at dawn . I woke up in the morning the day before the audition as well .
It was only a few days , but I got used to it , so I woke up spontaneously even though it was earlier than the time I had been waking up for the past 5 years .
A quiet room without the smell of disinfectant , a large bed , and the dim light of dawn , I quickly got used to these things . And that I'm not alone.🥲
Not long ago , when I opened my eyes , I was always lying in a rectangular coffin . Trapped in a small windowless room , I started my day with the confirmation that I was still breathing .
T/N: he's referring to the Time he lived at the goiswon
Living itself is a sin , but i also had to make atonement to pay off the debt of reality . So at that time , every day I opened my eyes was meaningless to me . There was no excitement for a new beginning . But now , at least when I open my eyes , I can expect it . Because I can hear the voice of warmth that touched me . A strange relief that I am not alone . 🥺
" I can't come . " 🤨
I woke up to a muffled voice from my lips that touched my neck . As I turned my head to look at the guy behind my back , I realised something . Maybe it's because the only time I have to talk with him is in the morning , so even if I sleep late , I always wake up around this time .
" Can't you come ? " 🤨
As his arms wrapped around my waist loosened , i was able to move my body comfortably . But as soon as I turned my body on my side , his arms wrapped around my waist again . Unlike me who slept in a T shirt , he always slept naked, so I could see his movements vividly . I couldn't take my eyes off of his muscles that were moving and the changing body lines . 👁👁
T/N: Enjoying the "view" are we sir taemin 😏🤤
" I have to go down to the countryside."
It was a short explanation , but I kind of knew what he meant . I thought it was the sound of not being able to come in tonight .
Tomorrow morning , the wound will not be pressed . Ando had to listen first , but the regret that there was no one by my side was even greater , so I was surprised myself . So I spat out words to involuntarily hide my embarrassment .
" Buy a souvenir. " I think he laughed .
The smile that came out of his lips had pressed the nape of my neck which tickled my skin .
" What would you like to have ? " 😇
T/N: You~ 😘 lost bby gurl 💥
It was a pleasant voice for some reason , so I talked to him as it was . Anything because I don't have anything I want .
" Walnut cookies . " 🥺
He lifted his head as he was lying half drafted on top of me , lying upright . It wasn't bright , but I could see his smiling eyes . Even though the answer was nothing special and there was nothing special in the morning , the way he looked at me was filled with emotion . It's as awkward as realising that you're not alone when you open your eyes , but it felt similar to the feelings of excitement . Knowing what kind of eyes he usually makes , his smile , which indicates a good feeling , had to be special . Not when he hears the answer of a walnut or something , but when he finds something more important to him . But even now , and lately , I keep looking at those eyes . A smile that shows easily enough that it doesn't matter to me . I know that those eyes will change into scary eyes at some point , but the moment I see them , the bottom of my heart tickles. A little bit of palpitation . 🥺
