LOVE, LIE | ✓

29-[ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛʀᴜꜱᴛ ᴍᴏᴏɴ, ʜᴇ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴄʜᴀɴɢɪɴɢ]

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Days are now lighter and illuminated, and Jimin feels more at ease with his thoughts. Following their physical intimacy, he had concerns about various aspects, but it turned out that Taehyung was far more tender towards him than he had initially believed.

He no longer pushes away Taehyung's affections, yet he can't help but admit feeling a bit shy and nervous - a natural reaction considering Jimin still perceives life as having taken a different course; his best friend is now his husband, a fact he has come to accept. Taehyung takes excellent care of him, and they have now resumed their life in Seoul in their shared apartment.

Jimin treasures and deeply appreciates Taehyung's care and affection, though he can't shake off the lingering insecurities that reside in the back of his mind. It feels unjust for him to think that Taehyung's displays of affection are merely superficial to smooth things over. Jimin isn't oblivious; he can recognize the distinct change in Taehyung, and the special place he holds in Taehyung's heart.

He recalls the night when he felt overwhelmed with panic, and Taehyung comforted him by whispering sweet and reassuring words, calling him "love." Jimin hesitates to question why Taehyung used that term, considering it might just be another endearing moniker like "sweetheart." However, the way Taehyung pronounced "love" made a different impact on Jimin, leaving him with a unique feeling that he couldn't quite explain.

He feels as though his heart is already well-acquainted with the concept of love, yet he still struggles to comprehend its true essence. He never wanted to understand it in depth.

However, when Taehyung gazes into his eyes, embraces him tenderly, and places gentle kisses upon Jimin's lips with such undeniable passion, it makes Jimin feel like a precious gem. He senses that his very soul belongs to Taehyung, that he is enveloped in his loving embrace. Yet, he convinces himself that it is only natural for a young, married man to feel a certain level of affection towards his spouse.

But, when Jimin recollects the moments when Taehyung softly whispered in his ear before capturing his lips in a passionate kiss, or how they would cuddle together and inevitably find themselves lost in each other's love, he cannot deny the longing he feels in his heart when Taehyung is not by his side. He yearns for them to be entwined in each other's arms, for their souls to be united as one.

Today, Jimin finds himself reflecting on a particular moment that still holds some significance for him. It was a moment when he was taken aback by panic and discomfort because Taehyung had noticed his birthmark on his back.

Initially, Jimin expressed a clear aversion towards it, even going as far as considering it ugly. However, in hindsight, he now realizes that his reaction may have been unnecessary, and he feels a tinge of embarrassment about it. Interestingly, Taehyung never pressed Jimin about the origin of the birthmark, which used to be a frequently asked question from others at the time.

It seems that Taehyung was able to sense that Jimin was not prepared to discuss this topic openly. Despite this, Jimin continued to express his regrets and insecurities, such as his concerns about his mother's disapproval.

Jimin believes that his behavior may have sparked curiosity and confusion in Taehyung, yet he tried to steer clear of addressing these issues directly. However, he acknowledges that he cannot entirely escape his own thoughts and assumptions, as they continue to linger in his mind.

Closing the screen of his laptop, Jimin tossed it on the nearest table. He couldn't shake off his nervousness, constantly overthinking about something he shouldn't be. He found himself pacing back and forth, trying to distract himself.