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[ Fantasy / slow burn]
Park Jimin had finally made the decision to settle down. However, everything took an unexpected turn when his best friend, Kim Taehyung, did something completely unexpected. Following that day, Jimin's life was for...
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It's been precisely two months and fifteen days since everything settled down in our lives. Taehyung's caring nature has become more prominent in his actions, and we both find ourselves content with the life we lead. While we don't openly discuss our feelings, we share a mutual understanding that permeates our relationship.
I have a beautiful moon tattoo on my skin that symbolizes our bond, and Taehyung holds it dear to his heart. However, despite the love and affection we share, I can't help but feel a lingering sense of unease within me. It has nothing to do with Taehyung, but rather an inner turmoil that whispers uncertainties, leaving me with a nagging feeling that questions the validity of my emotions.
At times, I find myself lost in thought, momentarily withdrawing from our interactions. Even when Taehyung is right beside me, I feel a sudden realization of his presence that startles me and leads me to unintentionally push him away. It's a conflicting feeling that I struggle to comprehend, despite my efforts to resist its influence.
As I struggle to articulate my emotions to Taehyung, I am often left with an overwhelming sense of helplessness. It's as though the intensity of my feelings is too great to be captured by mere words. Instead, my subconscious seems to have taken over, manifesting these emotions in the form of strange and unsettling dreams.
In these dreams, Taehyung and I are present but not quite ourselves. Our faces are same, but the era is not our own. The dreams are so vivid that they feel real, and I struggle to comprehend their meaning.
One particular dream stands out in my mind, where I encountered an unfamiliar boy who spoke to the dream version of Jimin. Although I do not recognize this boy's face, he seems to hold some significance in my dreams, leaving me with a sense of unease.
What's more puzzling is the connection between these dreams and an old man's story I heard in Paris. The story seems to have a strange link to these dreams, although I'm not sure what that connection is.
All in all, these dreams leave me feeling perplexed and uncertain, searching for answers that seem just out of reach.
Sometimes, I find it hard to fall asleep because I don't always dream of pleasant things. In some dreams, I feel as if I'm being chased by someone, and I'm constantly running away from them. Other times, I see myself begging an unknown shadow, which reminds me of my childhood days. I don't know what kind of hallucinations I'm having, but they can be scary and unsettling. As a result, I sometimes end up arguing with Taehyung, even though he is innocent in all of this. I feel guilty for taking out my frustration on him, but I can't help it. My inner self sometimes experiences conflicting emotions, such as love and hate for him.
Once again, today finds us both in a state of turmoil. Everything seemed fine just moments ago, but then my insecurities crept in, causing me to withdraw from Taehyung. This angers him, and he erupts, expressing his frustration that I should try to understand him better. In response, I lash out with, "What the hell, Taehyung? Can't you see that I can't be by your side 24/7?" It's an invalid point I make, for deep down, there are times when all I desire is to be enveloped in his embrace around the clock. However, I vocalize the opposite of what I truly feel.
