save me before its to late

the sucide note and the apologie note

#SHORT STORY

You dicided that life was not for you so you wrote a note to your family and friends to read when you were long gone.

To family and friends,

I'm sorry for this choice but I could not handle my life no more it was getting out of control and this was the only way I could regain my control... I'm sorry...
Mother and father I truly love you and I'll never forget you tell my siblings the same tell them to be strong and not to be like me...I'm sorry...
My friends I love you all and I could trust you all and I'm sorry for my choice but just under stand I needed to be free from this hell so please make me a promise. I don't want to see any of you in the afterlife because one day you'll meet someone and have a family and new friends and I'm sorry I could not be apart of that to but please promise me... I'm sorry...
I'm sorry I put you all in this situation and made you up set but none of you could of saved me I was dead a long time ago so please don't blame your self for this and I beg of you please forgive me...I'm sorry... I love you all...

From your one and only me
Xxxxx

One year after your deat...

You thought they would get over you but they didn't not at all...

Your mother wakes up every night crying as she remembers your frail body hanging from your ciling fan just there dangling thinking that she could of saved you...

Your father had to work over time just to pay for your funeral and he was never there to confert my mother through your death...

Your brother and sister are to young to understand that you'll never be coming home so they sit and wach and licen to door hoping you will be home soon...

Your friends forgave you but they are still upset about your passing...

One of your friends think it was his fault because you had feelings for him and he had feelings for you but was to scarred to tell you...

Your second friend is in counselling because she thought it was her fault for ignoring you and now she wants to see you again to say sorry...

Your third friend is cutting her self because she thinks it's her fault because she told people your secret...

Your fourth friend I would like to say is trying to help his friends get through your death and keep a level head but I can't. He coumited suicide one year after you because people blamed him for your death and he got beat up pretty bad and what he wrote in his note was not a sucide note it was a apologie...

And it read....

To everyone I have ever known,

Don't get me wrong I love my family and I loved my life but I could not live with my self after 'your name' died not because I got beat up or bullied I would go through that again and again If 'your name' came back but I know that will never happen so I'm sorry...
I'm sorry I could not handle the pain of all are loess.
I'm sorry I didn't keep your promise about living my life but I could not life with my self when I could of saved you. I could of told someone about your dark thoughts or even your self - injuries but I couldn't when you beged me to stay quite but I'm sorry I broke that promise to but I guess that don't matter anymore I'm coming to see you soon until then...

From your best friend 'your best friends name'

And you thought no one cares when your wole world loved you.

You thought that you were getting rid of your pain but you didn't you just passed it on.

Just think... you are loved by everyone and to think that you aren't then maybe you should open your eyes before you make a decision that could distroy people around you lives.