𝙏𝘼𝙆𝙀 𝙈𝙀 𝘼𝙒𝘼𝙔 • Modern Chiscara

V • Broken Porcelain

• Childe's POV •
What a drag.

it's tighnari's week to make the breakfasts and shit now. hes always forcing us to shove vegetables down our throats. ugh...disgusting.

ive grown to hate vegetables after eating so much of it while i was in that godforsaken gang. most of the time, the vegetables were obviously rotten. i had to eat it anyway, to show respect.

"ew..." i mumbled, hoping to get spared from eating these stupid green things.

"Childe, they're good for you. they'll help you keep your muscle," he responded, stir-frying some mushrooms and lettuce leaves together. who the hell does that? tighnari, apparently.

i ate the fully cooked meal of stir-fried mushroom and lettuce. why do people from other nations eat a full on five star dinner for breakfast?

i just dont get it. eating eggs and a bit of toast is enough for us snezhnayans. well, my family, anyway.

...ah. its almost christmas. people love christmas. i dont really care for it. its just some useless gifts piled on top of eachother, coming from your so called loved ones.

even so, i found myself searching for a little something for scaramouche. i didnt know what i was doing, my mind just kept on flashing to that short bowl cut kid, almost everything reminded me of him. its so damn annoying..

the entire dorm was decorating the main room for christmas. even scaramouche joined in...i guess he just wanted to have a little bit of fun for once.

for fuck's sake, why do his eyes look as if hes about to start crying at any moment? hes so weak.

he used to walked around the dorm in just a t-shirt and shorts, even during the middle of winter. now, he's completely covered himself up. he definitely cuts himself. fucking pathetic.

i found my heart sort of squeezing at the thought of that. my eyelids felt heavy.

i hit myself, and joined in on the decorating. it was kind of fun, i cant really lie. the way scaramouche fell over just about everytime he reached up to try and hang up a baubel was actually kind of cute.

what am i saying. i swear to the archons.

thankfully, i was offered a break from work today, because my manager told me i was working just about every day that was available for me, and that i deserved the break. finally.

that fucking manager can suck my dick for all i care. actually, never mind. i dont want that thing anywhere near my dick.

decorating the dorm was kind of calming, and it lifted my mood a little. my older sister is gonna be bringing me home for the holidays. i havent seen any of my family in a few months. i miss them.

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it was the week before christmas eve. i secretly bought a little cat keychain for scaramouche...why did i even do that?? im so stupid, he'll probably find out it was me sooner or later.

i watched him unwrap it, and just stare at it for a solid five minutes. maybe he liked it? i guess i'll never know.

for secret santa this year, i got kaeya, kaeya got tighnari, tighnari got xingqiu, xingqiu got scaramouche, and scaramouche got me.

of course he has to get me.

i got a little necklace with a hydro symbol on it. it looked expensive, not usually something he would buy. the frame around the hydro symbol was like the ones in the fairytales of "visions". it was the frame from snezhnaya. when i saw the necklace, i smirked, and thanked him.