black Dahlia|| Craig Cody

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craig's pov
i could really just kill baz. the fuck was he thinking? trying to make her relapse immediately?! i pull her to me "you're gonna be okay baby" kissing her head gently. she mutters "i...need it" shaking. fuck. i make her look at me "you're stronger than these urges baby. stronger than those drugs. you can withstand this. we're in this together alright? i'm sorry baby" it's all my fucking fault. all of it. i supplied her with drugs. i brought her to renn for re ups. and renn shot her up. because of me.

she reels back and asks "why are you sorry craig?" i stroke her face noticing the bags from exhaustion and how pale she is. "i did this to you" she wipes the tear that falls from my eye from pain and guilt. "you didn't do this to me craig. i was gonna get pills and coke whether it was from you and renn or not. renn is who took advantage of me being high and shot me up. i'm the one who even put myself in that position"

i shake my head "i shouldn't have enabled you. or that habit. renn did what she did because of me" she asks "what are you saying craig?" i sigh "maybe baz was right" "craig" she snaps. i shrug "what if he was? right about me. us. this. i'm who gave your first taste of this. and we only got worse. and now look at you. you got shot up because of a bitch i used to fuck. he said i'd bring you down with me and destroy you and he was right" she huffs "what? is this the end of us then? i'm fucked up craig but so are the rest of them. i need you okay? you. you're the only thing that makes this shit bearable. i know...i know you're guilty. but i made the decision to take that first bump and line from you. i made the decision to go to renn for more drugs. you didn't force my hand craig. i can't have you quit on me"

stroking my face and i tell her "im no good for you" she tells me "that's not true craig. you are...the best thing to have happened to me in a long time. i need you. and i know...despite you trying to push me away...you need me too. we have a long road ahead with us getting clean..." i nod and she kisses me "stay with me" i nod weakened by her. completely. "always" i utter to her knowing she'd be better off but she's my addiction. the second her lips touched mine...i knew i'd belong to her forever if she wants me that long. 

i pull her closer kissing her deeply and my fingers in her hair. she climbs onto my lap and i grip her ass. she pauses "wait" i furrow my eyebrows "what's wrong baby?" she's off my lap and puking in a split second. fuck. i get up and walk over and hold her hair back for her. she starts to shake and i hold her "i got you baby. it's okay. i got you"

she sniffles "lemme clean this up. fuck i puked on myself" i kiss her head "don't worry bout that lia. let's get you cleaned up" she replies "andy's gonna have a heart attack seein it i gotta-" and she pukes more.her withdrawal symptoms must be hitting her all at once. fuck. the door behind me opens and i turn and see it's J and Pope. j hands her water "drink this okay?" she tells pope "i can clean" he shakes his head "nah i got this lia." she shakes her head again and tries to take the cleaning supplies ignoring the water j tries to get her to drink and i pick her up and nod "thanks guys" i head to my room and to my bathroom. i strip and help her do the same and put us in the shower. i clean her off ridding the pieces of puke and i wash her hair for her too. she curls into my chest "thanks" i kiss her head "id do anything for you...you know that right?" she sends me a smile "you know i'd do the same right?" i kiss her softly "i know lia." we finish up, and get ready for bed. a knock sounds at the door and i open it to see smurf "heard the symptoms were hitting a bit harder. here in case you need to puke more. here's some water and your meds they gave to help" i nod and take them "thanks" she nods and smurf says "you take care of her alright? she needs anything...and i mean anything you call for me alright?"

"if this act of service is to get her back into working...stop. she's gotta recover and get help. last thing she needs is your manipulation smurf" i huff. turning and i see she's out like a light already. "she's the only daughter i have that matters. she's going through something terrible and i want to help." she replies and i nod and ask "and what about renn? you handle that?" my voice low. "figured i'd have her squirm a bit. bitch deserves that much. doesn't she want to handle her business? she's all about it" my girl is a killer. killed more than even pope has. she doesn't have a record though despite her long time as a criminal. she's never been charged with anything she's ever done. i shake my head "she ain't in the right state for it. baz...he's her kill. but renn it's too soon considering what she's going through right now" "then we wait for her call. but i'll have fun scaring the bitch until then" she says leaning. i sigh and join my girl in bed her tensing. "it's me babe. go back to sleep" i say and kiss her head turning off my lamp.