dahlias pov
i wake up and feel...better. like a weights been lifted off of me. everything is clear. guilt. i hurt craig. i...i was going to stab him. i look over with tears in my eyes "craig" he smiles "hey baby" i sit up "what did i do? are you okay?" i grab his arm and he says "baby im okay" i shake my head "i hurt you. i...i could've killed you" sniffling. he makes me look at him "breathe lia." i shake my head "what did i do" he tells me "baby it's just a scratch i promise im okay" softly pulling me to him. i sniffle "i hurt you"
he makes me look at him "it didn't even hurt lia. swear. you're worried about me being hurt? sweetheart you've been suffering in silence for days now. hurting. alone. look at me. why didn't you say something? we could've helped you through this" i say "thought i could do it and be fine. i don't want the pills to trigger a relapse" he nods "you need these princess. okay? we're all here to help and monitor" i'm reminded of whar j said. he fucked nicky.
"what?" he asks noticing me freeze. "did you cheat on me?" i ask boldly. i need to know. i tell him "tell me the truth craig. all of it." he takes my face in his hands "i love you." i sigh "craig" "no baby listen to me. i love you. i'm in love with you. you. i've been wanting you for as long as i can remember. now that i have you...i never would do something that i know is gonna cost me to lose you. i didn't fuck nicky. she's a fucking kid baby. she's a fucking liar, she probably said it to J to get him pissed. i hung out with her to keep her around so in turn we can keep her dad around to do this job. but that was it. she wanted drugs and i told her im clean and to chill the fuck out. i never touched her baby. i swear." he tells me. i pause and read him. he's telling the truth. "say something...please"
i say "i believe you" he asks "yeah?" with a smile. i nod "you're a shit liar craig" he scoffs "i lie all the time for jobs and get away with it" "because you're hot" i tell him and kiss him softly. he melts into me "baby i was so scared for you." stroking my hair "im sorry" i tell him. he replies "i just want you to be okay. okay? that's all i want. don't apologize for being sick lia. never." i look at his bandaged arm and he says "stop it. i'm fine. i hardly even feel it." i kiss the bandage "im sorry" "it wasn't you" he says hugging me. i tell him "it was me. i cut you. i freaked the fuck out on you and refused to listen." he replies "you weren't on your meds baby. you're sick and were going through the lows of your illness" i shake my head "that's not an excuse"
"i don't blame you" he tells me. "how can i even make this up to you? i was going to fucking stab you if andy didn't intervene. and i wasn't medicated" i say feeling terrible. "you don't need to. baby you're sick. that all that was and now you know and so do i and we can keep you medicated as needed and keep you safe from possible relapse" he tells me kissing me softly. "i could've killed you." i mutter. he shakes his head "what if doesn't help anything princess." taking me out the room where everyone else minus baz is.
