Stranded (One Direction fanfiction)

Chapter 8

I slowly open my eyes in a daze. Where am I? What happened? My head hurts. I wince as I touch my head to find a solid bump there. 

I take a look at my surroundings and sigh. Of course. I'm still on this miserable raft with One Direction.

Then I remember what happened. "Oh god" I say searching for Niall. "Where's Niall!?" I say panicked. I look over at Harry and see his pale face. "Harry? Oh dear god. He's gone isn't he?" I sob, falling onto my knees.

Harry looks over at me and doesn't have the words to speak. He puts his head down and tries not to cry but fails miserably as he chokes up a sob and soon drenches his shirt in tears.

"Oh my god" I cant cope my head around this. My mom always told me that the first stage of grief was denial. I guess I'm in that stage because I don't believe that he's gone. I cant. I keep hoping that I'll look over and see his shimmering smile and beautiful blue eyes, laughing his contagious laugh.

I don't see him though. The only thing I see is 4 boys, staring into space. They all look pretty dead. They aren't even crying. They're just sitting there, with pale faces, and dead eyes. 

I want to comfort them, tell them it'll be okay. The thing is. . . I can't even convince myself that it'll be okay. We have no idea where we are! We have barely any food and water left!

The thought that Niall is actually gone keeps haunting my thoughts. I keep drifting in and out of sleep, quietly sobbing. Niall, oh Niall. We had a connection. Not a love connection, but I felt like I could tell him anything. He was my rock.

I go over and sit beside Louis. "Louis?" I ask. He dosen't respond. He just stares into nowhere. The happy, cheery Louis that we all knew is gone. I wonder if i'll ever see that smile anytime soon. Not that im expecting anyone to smile. 

I rest my head on Louis shoulder and sigh. "Sorry" I tell him. He dosen't respond, but I know he heard me because he rests his head on mine and falls asleep.

We really need to think about what we're going to do. We can't just float out into the ocean and hope we reach land. That's not going to happen. I really need to take charge. I know that Niall being gone has really affected us all pretty drastically. But that can't mean that we give up hope. 

"So. . . What are we going to do?" I ask the boys. I don't expect any of them to answer before Liam speaks up. "I don't know. . . I just. . . I miss him" 

"I know Li, we all do. We can't give up though. We really need to figure out where we are going and ration out the food and water and just get back on track. Niall would want this" I explain.

Liam nods his head and tries to smile but fails. I pull him in for a hug. "It'll be okay" I say into the hug. I start to pull away but he pulls me closer for a longer hug. "Sorry, i'm a hugger" He says. That makes me smile. 'Its okay"

I pull out the map that we had stashed away in one of the bags and examine it closely. "Okay so if we're here'' I say pointing at a point on the map. "And the U.S is here" I say pointing at the U.S. "Then we just have to head to the right a few kilometers to avoid the current and then west and we should head straight into the U.S if I'm correct" 

"You can read maps pretty well" Says Zayn. "Yeah my mom taught me when I was younger. She said 'the most important thing you have to know in life is a map. Know where you are, what you want, and how you're going to get there and you're set' I'm not sure she was just talking about maps though" I chuckle. 

"She seems great" Smiles Zayn. I smile back at him. "Hey look at us. We're all smiling." I say. Some of the boys smiles look forced with sadness behind their eyes. But Zayn's smile looks pretty genuine. After a while his sadness takes over him and his smile turns into a frown.

I grab the paddles and start rowing towards where the map I drew out says. "Hey could someone grab the other paddle and help me row?'' I ask. Harry gets up and grabs a paddle and takes a seat opposite of me and starts to row.

'Thanks" I tell him. He nods back at me. After a while of rowing, we reach where we're supposed to turn so me and Harry work together to turn the raft and finally turn it so we're facing south. 

"Okay so lets switch off. Every hour or so, we'll switch two people to row, okay?" I tell the boys. They all nod. "Here, me and Zayn will go" Says Louis. I smile at them and sit back down as they get up and take our places. 

My mind drifts off to my mom. My dad had left us when I was 8. He looked at me and said. 'Robin, life sucks. That's how it is. There's going to be people coming and going in your life and I'm one of them. So don't cry and don't come looking for me in a few years okay?' Yeah, he didn't like to sugar-coat things.

I really hope my mom isn't too worried. I wonder if she even knows that I got into a plane crash. She might think I'm off travelling Europe. Oh how I wish I was. I may have been at the top of the Eiffel Tower right now, staring off into the distance, without a care in the world. 

I get lost in my thoughts for awhile. Thinking about what I could be doing if the crash didn't happen. My thoughts almost make me smile for a second. I push away my Europe thoughts and decide to do something that I haven't done in a while. Pray. I don't care if the boys are listening. I start my prayer.

"Dear God. I know that I haven't spoken to you in a while. I'm sorry. I just want to make sure that you've met Niall. I bet he's eating right now, right? With all the other angels in heaven. God, please tell him that I miss him, as do the other boys. Tell him that with all my heart I would trade places with him any day. He didn't deserve to die. I may be joining him soon though. I don't know how much longer I can survive out here. Tell Niall that I'll see him soon. Okay? Tell him that I miss his blue eyes and his laugh and his way to light up a room. Tell him that he's worth it. Tell him that no matter what happens, I wont forget him. Oh god, tell Niall that I knew he liked me. Tell him I'm sorry for not loving him like he deserved to be loved. He deserved much more than he got and I hope he gets that in heaven. I pray to you God, that you let these 4 boys survive. Don't worry about me. But make sure that they live and get home to see their families, and their fans. Please. Amen"

Hey guys, so you probably all hate me for making Niall the one to "go''. I'm sorrrrrryy. Oh and also for the prayer thing, i'm not religious or anything so i didn't really know how to write that part so excuse me if i was wrong or anything. I also didn't proof read so sorry about any mistakes. Love you guysss, please like and comment. and make sure to fan me!!

If i get 5 comments by tonight then I may do another upload today!