Love is not enough to survive , trust and respect are more important in the relationship .
Sidharth was drowing into the guilt , the flashes of her broken self not leaving his mind . He was angry on himself for not talking and clearing things before . Communication is key in every relationship . Now he is paying for it , for not trusting her , for not being their for her when she needed him the most . She has never done anything against his will and loved him selflessly but he hurted her crossing all the limits .
It was a lazy Sunday , Sidharth was laying on the bed while Shehnaaz was doing touch-up to cover the marks given by him . But Sidharth didn't liked it , he asked her not to cover it but she ignored him and continued to do her task . She didn't even notice when he came and without saying anything snatched her makeup sponge .
" Sidharth chod de lag jayegi mujhe " ( Sidharth it will hurt let me go ) Shehnaaz winced as Sidharth tightened his hold on her hand which he twisted around her back directly looking into her eyes through the mirror , she was sitting on the table infront of the dressing table while he leaned on her from behind .
" Tera hath aur sath kabhi chodunga nahi lakin yeh meetha dard jarur dunga " ( I will never leave your hand nor your side but you have to bare this sweet torture ) saying he smriked and sucked her neck from behind . He loved his marks on her , he loved to .
" Rakshas " ( Evil man ) Shehnaaz mumbled closing her eyes and digging her nails on his arm .
Now he is feeling suffocated , all their beautiful memories were flashing . Their smile laughter and her giggles would fill the room but now it's all empty . He couldn't be in his room without her , he was missing her badly it's been months she has shut him up completely . He was equally broken now when she ignored him .
Sidharth was at his in-laws house along with his parents to apologise , they were ashamed of his doings but could not abondon him . Every family members face showed disappointment . No one expected from a man like Sidharth , who was calm composed and claimed to love would disrespect and hurt his wife to this extent .
It's been 3 weeks of her leaving him and their home , not a single day passed were he didn't regret his doings . His parents felt ashamed yet sorry at their situation as they saw both suffering along with the kids . Shehnaaz parents refused to acknowledge his presence and ignored his apologies .
" Shehnaaz , I'm sorry meri baat .. " she didn't let him complete his sentence and walked away to her room . He felt like someone pulled his heart out from his soul and squeezed it . The regret , distance was already breaking him now her ignorance added more pain to him , he was feeling like his soul was leaving him slowly yet painfully . He was losing faith that she would ever forgive him .
After putting lots of efforts he finally convinced them to meets his babies after suffering a whole month atleast to let him see their babies . He is totally banned at her place , no one was ready to talk or accept his apology . He hurted her along with her family who treated him like their own son but he failed to keep the respect .
He was completely broken when she send him divorce paper . She didn't want him anymore ? Why would she be with a man like him who has such low mentality , he is self loathing .
Will she will ever forgive him for his sins ? He needs a single chance to talk apologize or even beg to comeback to him . He is lost soul without her , he needs her but when he saw her empty eyes with no emotions on her face he knows she is never coming back to him again and in the same place where she didn't get the respect love and care from the partner . How will he survive without her ? he remembered their first meeting .
They were asked to talk if they want to , Sidharth and Shehnaaz both send to other side of the room . Sidharth was thinking how to make the conversation without making her feel uncomfortable but he was surprised when he heard her voice .
" Umm what are your expectations from this marriage ? " Shehnaaz asked .
" Huh Love , Care and an understanding partner " he said .
" Are you okay with marrying a guy who is decade elder then you " he asked . He wanted to know if she is aware of about their age difference .
" Not a decade but almost " she replied . 9 years of difference , She is 22 and he is 30 soon turning to 31 in next month . She had seen his bio data and searched him on social media , her parents already got all his information .
" At first place you would not have been here , if I had any problem with the age " her reply was stunning him . He didn't expect her to be so straight , he thought she is shy or nervous .
" Okay " he said looking around why the hell he is getting nervous now .
" I expect Respect , Honesty and Loyalty from my partner " she said what she wanted from the relationship , if he is thinking about them .
Sidharth was surprised , all he heard from other girls he meet before her and himself was they expect " Love , Care and understanding partner " but the most important quality in relationship were Respect , respecting other person not on the bases of their money background or power . Honesty reflects the trust between the partners and Loyalty shows the value of other person in life and love care understanding comes along with it .
" And I wanna do PHD " she said and they were called back . Sidharth was looking at her with admiration , he never thought he would fall for her so magically under her confidence . She is straightforward , passionate , confident and clear in what she wants and needs from life .
Never be on a same table where respect is not served .
But Sidharth was adamant too , he wants them back in his life and for her forgiveness he will wait till his last breathe . He is ready to fight with her but will never sign on the paper which will part their ways permanently . He still hope one day god will show some mercy on him as he regret everyday for not trusting her and win her back but not forcefully .
Their partnership is two ways , both needs to put efforts in the journey .
SIDNAAZ 🫂🧿
