MY LITTLE PRINCESSA

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Also guys I've decided to create an insta page for my book and hopefully future books, but on there I will be posting snippets of each chapter before I publish them and edits etc.
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•~Ariah~•

It was already night time which means I PROBALY was in there for a few hours.

As I got to my room I quickly shut the door behind me so that no one would see me in this condition because i wasn't in the mood to answer questions and I would most likely get in trouble for not telling anyone.

My parents trusted alex, they trusted him like there own son and in there eyes he is so innocent but in real life he is the devil himself. All these years he had just been abusing me and no one knew about it. Once I even tried to tell my mom but I was very young I was probably "eight" so she didn't belive me she thought I was lieing or just imagining things.

After I entered my room I went straight to my bathroom, and turned on the water so by the time I was ready all the cold water would already drain out. As i passed by the mirror to go for fresh towels I couldn't help myself but take a glance at my self. I've never looked so beat up in my life before. My arms had bruises and my lips were bleeding from when he punched me, my hair looks like it hadn't been combed in years and by just looking at my reflection I broke down and started to cry.

I stepped into the shower, feeling the warm water enveloping my body. As the droplets hit my skin, it was like a gentle caress, washing away the stress and weariness of the day.

As the water touch all of my freshly cut bruse, my body shivers in pain and warm tears roll down my face. Wishing I could just disappear or just press restart and go back to my life before all of this, before my parents success then maybe they would actually care about me and this would have never had happened.

As I was reaching for my body lotion I could feel my body stiffened and my body became weak, I started to shake and before I knew it felt as though I didn't have control over my self anymore. It almost felt like I could faint because my head became dizzy, and my vision became kinda blur. And all I could do in that moment was close my eyes. Eventually I just slid down to the floor as my head hit the wall. And I could feel the water hitting my face and I started to breath heavily. "I was having a panic attack", "calm down Ariah it's going to be okay" I kept telling myself that over and over until I somewhat calmed down.

Everytime I closed my eyes I kept getting flashbacks of everytime Alex would hurt me and touch me. And I kept on hearing thoese words "u useless thing" kept repeating in my head over and over and over again.
Thoese were the kind of things I would hear from Alex everytime he tried to take advantage of me.

As I sat in the corner of the shower, the warm water embraces me, mixing with my tears. The sound of the water drowns out my sobs, providing a comfort for myself. This is like a private sanctuary for me, I allow myself to release the pain and sadness that has been weighing me down. Each droplet carries away a piece of my hurt and my pain, offering a momentary escape from the world outside. As the water cascades over me, I feel a sense of release and renewal.