The demons that hold me...

The ones that control me

I am not much of a talker, but Bluey insisted I make a speech with her.

"C'mon Stan! It'll be fun!" She wined

"I don't know Bluey, it seems a bit... Odd for me." She didn't like this...

"Stan! You're always sitting alone in your room, you never play with us!"

She just kept going and going, until finally...

"Bluey just stop! Please just let me be!" Bingo was playing with my tail... "And let go of my tail!" I screamed.

"Don't yell at Bingo!" Bluey yelled back and hit me in the leg, "You're the worst brother ever!"

"Stan and Bluey Heeler! Knock it off!"

"He started it mum!" Bluey yelled.

"Ugh, whatever" Bluey went to her room and Bingo quickly followed.

"Gosh this family is so needy!" I said a loud.

"Stan morphine Heeler, get down here!" Bandit screamed at me.

I wasn't happy, but I had a lot on my mind.

"Stan, what's going on today? Why are you screaming at Bluey and Bingo?" Chilli asked.

"Because I just wanna be left alone Mum! I'm sorry that I want to clear my head a bit today." I said.

Chilli and Bandit became sentinel for me... Asking me questions again.

"Honey, please just don't yell at them, they don't understand most of what you do, they're just kids."

"And I'm not!?" I bellowed, "Gosh I just want to live my life happily, but I can't because of Hugh school. I swear everything used to be so much easier..." I started to wine and cry on the couch, Mum and Dad left me be for some time... Twenty minutes I think? I've lost count...

Bluey

"Why was Stan so mean!?"

I didn't want to talk to him for the rest of the day if possible... But he opened the door.

"Bluey... Can we talk?" He asked.

"No, I don't wanna talk to you. Go away." I said not knowing what to do.

"Okay, I'll be in my room when you're ready." He said and walked off.

Why did he just listen to me? He's the big brother! He shouldn't have to listen to me!

Stan

What is wrong with me!? Why did I do that to Bluey!? Now she won't even talk to me! Ugh I hate this shit! Why can't I just go back!? To when I was happy!? To when I cared about life!?

"God dammit in hell! I wish I wasn't even born!"

I punched a wall and my shelf broke, sending all of my things off the shelf and to the floor.

"Ugh I hate this stupid room, and I hate this life! I HATE MYSELF!"

"If I had never done anything to make my parents mad at me maybe they wouldn't have left that day!"

Bluey

"What's all that noise?" I asked Bingo

"Dunno" she said, "It sounds like Stan"

"Yea, let's go check on him" we walked to his door and heard him yell, 'I hate myself'.

"Oh no, what is he doing in there?" I asked frantically panicking for my big brother, but I couldn't reach the lock.

"Here I'll help, gimme a boost Bluey" bingo said.

"Okay... Here we go!" I said as I lifted Bingo up.

We were able to open the door, what we saw next was bad...

It was Stan, he looked angry... Really angry.

"Ugh why can't I just ki-" he said as he turned to us...

"Bingo, Bluey, what are you two doing in my room?" He asked frantically.

"We wanted to make sure you are okay... What happened to your room?"

"It's nothing, I just... I'm sorry I was mean earlier..." He said

"It's okay Stan, wanna play?"

"Okay..." He said yes! Yay finally big brother comes to play!!!