𝐁𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚 , niccolo g.

𝟧. 𝖡𝖺𝖽 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗂𝖼𝖾𝗌

BAD CHOICES !

──── i've made mistakes, but that doesn't make me a bad person.   because if i were a bad person,  you'd hate me a lot more than you already do.    i'm human and as a human i'll never be perfect,   i'll never manage to live a life of freedom the way you manage to make yourself believe you do.     i may have made bad choice, but at least i didn't ruin your good name.

in a desperate haste of trying to fix a friendship that had been ruined before it even managed to begin, i messaged ludo multiple times practically spamming the poor girls phone. i couldn't imagine how horrible she must be feeling right now, she was embarrassed in front of majority if not the whole school basically.

i begged ludo to try and make it work, to understand me and chiara had no clue that would happen. i didn't want to lose something i had just received, ludo, she was just misunderstood by so many people.

but no matter what i did, i got no reply. it made me feel horrible, i wish she knew how sorry i was that, that happened. but, if she wasn't willing to listen then i just, couldn't speak..

chiara began singing to make the dude who smashed her car feel better, and though that is such a chiara thing to do.. she's forgetting completely about someone else.

i sighed as i stopped looking at my phone, there was not much else i could do at this point. i tried everything, i was honestly extremely lucky i haven't been blocked yet.

i looked up to see damiano and chiara having a moment, he put his jacket on chiara. i was happy for her if that's what she wanted to do, id support her.

suddenly my phone starting ringing and damiano along with chiara looked at me. i looked at my phone to see ludo's contact appear, i quickly answered the phone spinning on my heals away from their stares as i picked up.

"ludovica?" i spoke, worry laced in my tone with pure concern. "some friend you are!" ludo shouted on the other line, which further made me feel bad. "what do you mean!? what did i do?" i asked offended she'd genuinely believe i had something to do with this.

i'd never embarrass anyone the way they embarrassed ludo! ever. nobody deserves that, nobody deserves to be treated like this and hated on the way she's been hated on.

"you knew." ludo stated, "have you not read ANY of my messages? i really had no clue, me and chiara had no clue that was going to happen." i stated trying to salvage whatever may be left of this call.

"besides, it's my fault, because i got that asshole to video us." ludo spoke, she genuinely sounded like she was crying which is no surprise after what happened.

"that's not your fault! you," i paused for a moment to collect my thoughts, i was pissed off and frustrated at this whole thing. "you had no clue he was going to do that to you. that isn't your fault, you trusted him. you didn't deserve that, nobody does."

"swear." ludo's voice rang on the other line, sadness going to seriousness within the minute of speaking. i had no reason to lie to her, i had no clue and if i did have a choice i would've punched him in the face. "swear you both didn't know."