Blossoming Thoughts: Seorin

Chapter 5: Bangtan Terrifies Seorin

[ Jungkook's POV ]

WHY??? Why did I fell in love with that girl? I'm indeed serious. I never felt like this before. I'm on cloud nine whenever I see her.

Why her? Why Han Seorin? Why this time?

Because of this feeling, I did the most stupid things that I didn't even imagine I would! Is that a magic? I get to speak foolish words. I get hurt. I feel possessive. I feel I needed to be with that girl. Ugh. Everything. This is not so me. I was changed.

I get hurt. Thorns were pricked on me. I just fell in love, and it was very unexpected!

At first, I had this jealousy in me, because I feel I should be selfish. I should be the only one to love her and not anyone else, including that Jin -- even he is my friend.

I also had desires. I exerted some effort just to please her. I exerted some effort to know her more. I exerted some effort to be her friend (like Jin). I exerted some effort to be get noticed. But all of these failed. She is blind. She doesn't understand me. She can't feel what I feel for her. In fact, she hates me. Yes, she noticed me but, once again, hated me for it.

What am I gonna do? Is there any other way?

The worst part here is that I'm trying to be nice to her but either she don't notice it at all or she don't get it at all. Tss. Nah. Ugh.

Honestly, I loosen up a little when Jin said he'll just let go of her and help me instead. I know right, that thing would gonna happen. He loves peace and I think he is not in peace whenever she thinks of Seorin, because of me.

But still, I'm not a hundred percent comfortable with what he had said. Yes, he told us that he'll stop his liking for that girl but there is still a probability that she will fall for Jin.

I just don't know how to approach girls, maybe. I'm terrified that if I'll try, she'll reject me. She'll ignore me, I think. If I'll try to befriend her, she'll think that I'm teasing her. She'll think that a boy like me is not deserving of her time...

...even just friends.

This is so gay, I know. She's my weakness.

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"No, it's not that", I turned my head and saw Jin saying those words.

How did he know?

I just ignored him. Tss, Jin. What are you trying to do? I turned back and looked on the other direction, facing the blackboard.

Then, Jimin walked seriously near it and pointed the sentence Jin wrote: "IRON MAN IS WEAK". They laughed together.

Argh. It's been days and that sentence has not yet been erased. Are they making fun of me?

"Tss." They're testing my patience.

I didn't bother to say a word and they continued their fun.

"Why so serious?", asked Jimin. "Stand up, J-Hope", now he's referring to J-Hope whose sleeping again in his chair. "Come here, Jin." Jin, sitting in the corner, is busy listening to the music.

"Jungkook", he finally said my name.

"What is this all about?"

"If you're Iron Man, release everything the unnecessary energy you have in your body now."

Okay. This sounded weird. But I'm still irritated when they call me Iron Man. Nah. That's not important, though. I should listen to them now. I forgot that I had friends.

"But how?"

Jimin gathered us in a circle and whispered the plan. Just like what a coach does in basketball.