I have always felt safer in the warmth
No, not the summer or the water you swim in during the blazing heat
The warmth you receive from someone you love, showing how much they care about you, something as simple as a hug
Or things that replace empty spaces of someone who cares
Like a warm shower or a fire
In the end they all share things in common,
being able to temporarily replace the loneliness I feel so often it consumes me
Not being held by someone who has truly loved me in a long time hurts
It is cold, lonely
Something I do not think words can even begin to describe
I could say I am fine with it and that it does not bother me, but that would be a lie
Lying seems to make others happy
I make fun of myself so others do not
I make sure others do not worry about me
This is how I keep myself "safe"
All eyes on me has never made me feel safer
No one is ever really safe, are they?
