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~Chapter- 19~

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Nitara's POV:

It's been six months already since I got married and there have been many ups and downs in my life. It feels like my life has come to a standstill, there is nothing going right in my life. This so called marriage has proved to be nothing less than a suicide for me. Ever since I got married, not a single moment has passed in which I have been truly happy, every moment is just surrounded by some or the other painful story. I still remember the day when he gave me that punishment in his study, I still feel goosebumps erupting on my skin just by thinking how painful and traumatizing that night was, that day he gave me the punishment for the sin which I never committed in real, he thought I was whoring around with men while being married to him, only if he knew the truth of why I got late that day. But now I don't feel anything, every accusation, every pain thrown in my way doesn't affect me now. The Nitara who was soft and kind hearted, and who cried for every pain and accusation thrown in her way died that very day, and will never come back....
That day when he left me in the study all crying and wailing in pain and misery, that day I decided to kill that Nitara who cries for every little thing because this cruel world doesn't deserve such kind hearted and soft personalities, one thing I realized that day was this world is only filled with devils, monsters and selfish people and there is no place for honest and truthful people like me in it, so that was the day when I decided to kill that old Nitara and become the exactly same slave Nitara which my so called husband want me to become. Since then there were several painful incidents happened in my life, after that day in his study I decided to end my life, so that I can't feel anymore pain as its already becoming unbearable for me with each passing day to live this type of life. The only sane thing happening right now in my life is my job, I thought after that night he won't allow me to work but surprisingly he did no such thing of which I'm really greatful because working in the cafe and meeting people for some time is helping me in some way to sustain. Although at cafe, all of them know that I'm married but I personally never felt the urge to tell them more about my husband and my so- called happy married life. I don't want to share anything about my personal life to anyone as I'm not comfortable while talking about all these things..so yeah, as I was saying that night affected me so much that I tried to kill myself one day,and end my story then and there and one day I took a day off from my work and as soon as he went to his office, I went to my room and locked it from inside and went to the washroom and took a blade from one of the cabinets of the washroom. I was about to slit my wrist with the blade when my eyes fell on my reflection in the mirror hanging in front of me. I saw that I was looking vulnerable and totally devastated, my eyes were swollen with dark circles resting just under my eyes and fresh tears were flowing freely from my eyes, I wanted to stop them, to wipe them off but they were just flowing.I looked at my vulnerable side and thought what have you done to me Yuvaan? What was my mistake?is it my mistake that I always wanted to live a good and happy life? If not, then for what sins am I being punished?
Lord I always worshiped you, always thought that maybe tomorrow something good will happen in my life, but nothing happened. Is this the result of love worship?

Thinking about all these things more tears flowed from my eyes and after wiping my tears harshly with the back of my hand and closed my eyes tightly, I will be finally free from all these pain and miseries and soon all my miseries will finally end with that thought I was about to slit my wrist when all of a sudden I remembered the dream which I saw almost 2 days ago. In that dream too I was about to take my life when something unusual happened. I remembered each and every single thing which I dreamt that night. In that dream I saw a figure standing in the dark with my eyes closed, I was not able to see the face clearly but that figure was coming close to me with each step and then suddenly there was bright light and finally I saw the person, I wanted to see for so long, the one I miss the most Mom, My Mom. Although I never saw my mom in person but still I had a picture of her with me which I was successful in hiding from my cruel father and witch step mom. They both destroyed every single thing which belonged to my Mumma and the only thing which reminds me of her is the Photo frame. She was there standing in front of me with a beautiful smile adorning her face, I stared her face with longing