Sin City ( Chaesoo G!P 18+ ) ✅

Chapter 38

Sehun was Chanyeol's P.l.

That explained why he was so eerie when we ran into each other at the grocery store. A million questions swam through my brain but my mouth couldn't form a single syllable. I was too afraid to ask him anything while he was angry with me. I still couldn't understand why Chanyeol would rather hire someone than tell me that he didn't want Jisoo and I sleeping together.

If he'd been documenting my affair from the very beginning why didn't he ever intervene? Did he not care enough? Did he really not love me anymore? Had our marriage really run its course?

As Chanyeol slammed the photographs dramatically on the table I stared wordlessly at them.

I didn't want to see the pictures but I needed to know if Chanyeol had any photos of Jisoo and I having sex. The first picture I saw was of Jisoo and I arriving at the Shilla hotel.

The next was a photo of Jisoo and myself leaving the hotel for pizza.

Then I saw a picture of myself nearly sitting on Jisoo's lap as she spoke about the flaws in my relationship with Chanyeol.

The next picture was Jisoo wiping the cheese off my mouth.

The following picture had to have been taken just seconds after because we were in the same position but Jisoo's lips were touching mine.

More tears cascaded down my face even when I tried to hold them back. The sorrow expanded in my chest at the knowledge of Chanyeol witnessing me in such a compromising position with Jisoo. I was heartbroken and mortified and ashamed of my actions. I would've done anything to take back all the pain I caused Chanyeol.

There was a picture of Jisoo grabbing the spare key that I kept hidden on the door frame. It actually looked like I meant for her to find the key there.

Oh my god.

I saw pictures of Jisoo kissing me just outside of the night club we went the last time. Pictures of us on the dance floor. You could clearly see Jisoo's hand between my thighs.

The last photo was of Jisoo leading me into the V.I.P room before we had sex in the restroom.

"Oh my god." I muttered more to myself than Chanyeol.

"That's all you have to say for yourself?"

There wasn't much I could say. Everything I've done in the few weeks was unforgivable. Even worse than my actions was the fact that there was nothing I could do or say to make him understand how apologetic I was. Other than saying sorry but that only served to make me feel better not Chanyeol.

"Chanyeol it was just sex." I whispered trying to convince him with lies.

Both Chanyeol and I knew that was a lie but I had to say it to make myself feel better.

"You were pushing me away and she kept pursuing me. You've got to believe me when I tell you that I've tried so hard to find my way out of the affair."

"The only reason it would've been hard for you is if you love her, more than you love me. Roseanne, your actions these past few weeks prove that you don't give a fuck about me, this marriage, or yourself."

"That's not true!" I blurted out through a flood of tears and a groggy voice.

"That's what the evidence tells me."

"Chanyeol..."

"Do you love her?"He asked me. "Are. You. In. Love. With. Her?"

"I-I love you."

"That's not what I asked you."I couldn't answer him."You were woman enough to lay in bed with her. Be a woman when it matters. Right now. Are you in love with her?"

"Yes." I muttered too softly

"I can't hear you."he growled.

"Yes I do. I don't know how it happened but I do love her." I blubbered in pathetic agony. All of the blood seemed to have drained from Chanyeol's pale complexion. The veins in his neck and fingers were throbbing. Tears poured from his grieving, red eyes making my heart ache.

"What were you getting from her that couldn't get from me?" He spoke through the hurt.

My throat tightened.

"Tell me!!!" He barked.

"Attention. Sex. Companionship."I was wrong for making Chanyeol out to be the villain but what I needed to say was my truth.

"When you test me and play cruel games Chanyeol you forced me to believe that you didn't care. Shoes and jewelry are nice but I needed you."

"So you were deprived of affection?"

"Yes I was."

"That's just bullshit, Roseanne. You've wanted a bad boy since you were a kid. You wanted the drama. You wanted the affair, and you got it."

"You're right. I wanted Jisoo from the moment I saw her, but I swear it wouldn't have happened if you didn't put your career before me."

"Regardless of that fact, we took those vows: For better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; until death do us part. We both took those vows. You don't break them because your feelings were hurt."

"I was wrong. I was so wrong. I know that."
Neither of us said anything for a while. I guess both of us were processing what had been said. All of the screaming, speaking, and crying had exhausted the both of us emotionally and physically but I wasn't nothing if not a woman who fought for what she wanted. I suppose up until that point, I wasn't a hundred percent sure what that was.

"I've been fighting for us since we met. I've been trying so hard to keep you away from other men because I didn't want to lose you. At the club I let you choose, and you let me down. Until now you've never been in danger of losing me because you had me in the palm of your hand. You think I take you for granted, but you've taken this marriage for granted. You've taken me for granted."

"Chanyeol?" The air didn't touch my lungs when I breathed his name so I grabbed the hem of his shirt hoping to get a glimpse into his eyes. He swiped my hand away before he spoke ruthlessly.

"I'm done fighting." Chanyeol lifted his keys off the hook and stormed out of the front door without a second glance back at me. As much I hated to admit it, Chanyeol was right. There was so many instances when other men have tried to steal me away from him but I never had to worry about Chanyeol being unfaithful.

Chanyeol experienced other women.

I was the virgin in our relationship.

He was the only man I ever dated seriously. I was curious about how good sex with another could be and that curiosity got the best of me.

I made a mistake.

Undoubtedly, the biggest mistake of my life. I didn't know how to make him understand that. I had my reasons for sleeping with Jisoo but the bottom line was Jisoo and I couldn't make it work. I couldn't save her.

There was so much hurt in her heart that she couldn't love me the way I needed to be loved. I also knew that I couldn't survive on sex-freak-island.

I wasn't made for it.

Chanyeol and I both had our flaws but I didn't want to live my life without him. I knew he wouldn't hurt me. I was certain that he loved me. We had our challenges but I felt like we have what it takes to make a marriage last. But how could I fight for a man who was giving up on me?

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