Sin City ( Chaesoo G!P 18+ ) ✅

Chapter 39

My body was crammed into a ball against the front door, my arms were locked around my legs keeping me in place. My face was pressed into my knees as the sadness crippled me. Tears sizzled down my hot cheeks acting, as a constant remembrance of all the mistakes I've made recently.

I felt as if I could cry for days on end and the sadness still wouldn't cease. Even if I cried for a hundred years my pain couldn't compare to the hurt that I intentionally brought on the two people who I cared about.

I started to wonder what Chanyeol was doing at that very moment. When he was leaving he made it pretty clear that he was done with me but I didn't want to believe it. I couldn't help but hold on tightly to the shred of hope that Chanyeol and I would be able to fix what I broke.

If I knew Chanyeol at all I'd bet he was somewhere mourning our relationship. I was tempted to pick up the phone and call him to only to hear his voice but I felt like I had no right. If he wanted to talk to me that should be his choice. I can't force him to forgive me.

Part of me also wondered what Jisoo was up to. Half of me suspected that she was drowning in her sorrows with one of the many women in her black book, that thought alone caused another pool of tears to run down my eyes. I can't stand that thought but I guess I'd have to get used to it.

I swallowed a sob while making myself believe that just maybe she was alone feeling as down on her luck as I did. That sent shivers down my spine. I can't bear the thought of hurting Jisoo. I love her. Fuck. I really do. But I have to respect myself more enough to choose to save my marriage.

I started thinking back to the night Chanyeol and I decided to go to Sin City. I wondered if our marriage would've taken an entirely different path if we hadn't gone. Would we have eventually started seeing a marriage counselor? Would we have talked about our issues? Was the real issue in our marriage or just that I wasn't sexually satisfied or was it the fact that Chanyeol cared more for his career than me?

I didn't wholly believe he did but his lack of fight led me to that conclusion. Would Chanyeol have stopped working so long and so often if he knew that Jisoo had the ability to jeopardize our marriage?

I felt my phone vibrating in the palm of my hand but my reaction was delayed. When I eventually glanced down I saw Jisoo's name on the screen of the phone I was both petrified and thrilled. I didn't know if I should answer. Part of the reason I was in this mess right now was because of my inability to pull away from Jisoo.

If I answered her phone call would she somehow manage to once again, reel me back into her world? I didn't want to find out. I turned my phone on its face and inched away from like my phone had contracted the Ebola virus. I exhaled a big breath when the phone stopped vibrating. My chest pumped erratically when my phone started to vibrating again. I reached over and flipped the phone and I saw Jisoo's name.

Why was she calling me so persistently? Was there an emergency or was she just desperate to talk to me? I bet she just wanted to talk so I moved even further away from the vibrating device.

My phone started a continuous cycle of vibrating, and then a brief pause before vibrating again. When I realized that she wouldn't stop calling. It worried me that I had seven missed calls all from Jisoo. Just as I was about to send my phone flying in the opposite direction it started to vibrate, again.

Eight calls back to back qualified as an emergency... right?

Reluctantly, I pressed the answer button and held the phone against my ear. I breathed slowly trying to catch my breath before I spoke.

"Hello?" I answered timidly.

"I'm so sorry to bother you Roseanne but it's an emergency." The voice didn't belong to Jisoo but it was familiar so I listened as the male voice spoke.

"It's Mark I don't know if you remember me or not..."

"remember you. What's the emergency?" The urgency in his voice scared me.

"Jisoo is here at my club acting crazy. She's starting fights and making a fool of herself. No one has called the cops yet but if you don't come down here right now she could be sleeping in a cell tonight."

"I can't Mark. It's not my place."

"She asked for you. You're the only one who can talk some sense into her. Please. She's my friend. I can't let her go to jail."

I couldn't stop myself from thinking this was some sort of stunt Jisoo was pulling, so that I would come see her. I needed to practice a little self-control when it came to her. If this affair was officially over I couldn't be at her beckon call.

"Can you put her on the phone?" I asked Mark.
There was several seconds of silence as Mark passed the phone to Jisoo.

"I know what you're doing, Jisoo. It's not going to work this time. I'm trying to focus on my marriage."

"Where is he, Roseanne?" Jisoo asked brusquely.

"Who?"

"The end-all and be-all. Your husband. Is he with you right now, fighting? Or, did he leave you like a fucking coward?"

"I lied and cheated for weeks. How can I expect him to want to fight for me after that kind of betrayal?"

"Love allows for forgiveness. If he loved you as much as I do he'd be able to forgive you."
I shook my head despite the fact that she couldn't see me.

"You don't understand."

A hard knock at my front door startled, me. I stood to unlock the door.

Then there she is. Jisoo standing in my doorway knocked all of the air out of my lungs.

"Here I am, Roseanne. Right here with you and I'm ready to fight for as long as I have to because I love you." Jisoo stepped over the threshold. She captured my face between her hands and merely stared into my eyes as she breathed a restorative breath.

"I missed you." I was at a lost for words. I didn't know what she was doing here.

I wasn't changing my mind.

I couldn't.

Somehow my heart was saying something completely different. My heart actually wanted to embrace her and not let go, give her some physical sign that what we shared was special and couldn't be dubbed as just sex.

"After you left I got to thinking and I realized that I cannot let you go. You told me not to be a coward. You told me to fight for the woman I love. Roseanne, I'm madly in love with you. I will fight and I won't stop fighting. I love you. I love you so much I don't think you love him, not anymore. You say you do all of the time but only because you're trying so hard to convince yourself. The truth is you're just comfortable being married to him because he's safe. You care about him just enough to make living with him bearable. You're not the same person you were when you married him. He's in love with the woman you once were. I'm in love with the woman you are right now and whoever you chose to be. We don't know a lot about each other but I'm willing to bet everything I have on you and I. Will you meet me have way?"

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