Mianite Ships [on Hold]

Sparklington T-T

This is going to be a bit sad and I edited some of the lyrics. (I changed butterscotch hair to purple hair)
Info:
Ship: sparklington (one sided)
Warnings: self harm, One way, tears, alcohol.
Prompt : wag loves Martha but sparklez loves wag. How ever wag is to busy with Martha to notice him.
Plz don't throw things at me for murdering this ship.
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Jordan's POV
Pretty girl with the purple hair your eyes and the sunshine smile that you wear
I can see how you make his soul glow

I have been pretty upset since wag told me that he loves Martha. I mean I have liked him silently since the day I met him but I didn't act on that so this is what happens.

Pretty girl with the adventurous mind You envision so much you make me look blind

Martha is much more exciting and fun then me. She makes me look like the most boring person in the world. Maybe alcohol will help. I get up from the ground were I was crying to graphics some cider sonja gave me a while back.

You spark his life in ways I'll never know

Ironically he sees more sparklez in her then he will ever see in me. To him I am invisible.

I won't hate you
but oh it stings
how does it feel to be adored by him

I can't hate Martha she did nothing. But it does hurt that he loves her. I mean I wish i knew how it felt for wag to like me. To be adored by him.

Pretty girl there's no need to fret Cause it's midnight, he's drunk and you're the one in his head

He came over to my house one night drunk and told me that he was in love with Martha. I take another bottle of cider because I have finished my first one. I need to do something else the alcohol isn't working. Maybe I need to cut. I go in to the bathroom.

You don't even have to try at all Pretty girl oh he looks at you
as if life is perfect
cause the world is new
in those moments I just feel so small

Martha is just loved she doesn't have to try to get his attention or make him love her. He looks at her like everything is perfect because she's there. Like nothing else matters. And every time he looks at her like that I want to curl up into a ball and cry. I get out my razor and bring it down on my wrist.

I won't hate you
but oh it stings
how does it feel to be adored by him

One for liking wag
Two more for not hating martha
Three for being such a failer
Four more for not being able to tell him
Five more for never knowing what it feels like to be adored by him.
How stupid to think
that i could compare
to the pretty girl with the purple hair

I here a knock on the door in between sobs I mange to say.

"go *sob* away *sob*"

"sparklez? Why are you crying? " it was Martha.

" You wouldn't *sob* understand *sob*"

"Yes I would. " she turns the handle

" don't come in here Martha" I can't speak after that I'm to busy crying.

"why not" I find myself not being able to respond or speak. She opens the door and gasped.

Martha's pov

I couldn't believe my eyes. Sparklez had cuts on his wrist a razor in his hand. He was spred out leaning against a wall. He was crying. He couldn't speak and there were several empty bottles around him.

I immediately went to bandage up the cuts and he pulled his arm away. I didn't want to believe he did this so I said,

"who did this to you"

"I did" he croked

"why would you do that?" I asked confused.

"because... Because waglington is in love with you. I have loved him for the longest time but he doesn't care about me."

" sparklez don't say that you don't know it's true"
I won't hate you
but oh it stings

"he told me he loves you Martha. But don't worry I won't hate you. It just hurts to know he hates me and loves you. It will all be okay soon I'll be gone and you can love him. "

" you can't do this don't you dare." I try to get the blade from him and he makes another really deep cut before I can.

how does it feel to be adored by him

I start crying.

"why"

"you know why. "

" but"

"it's okay but before I die I have one question. "

" what? " I ask with tears steaming down my face.

" How does it feel to be adored by him? "

I couldn't say anything he just bleed out and died and I did nothing. I cried and cried I didn't know what to do then the one person I didn't want to see walked in and said.

" w.. What happened to sparklez? "

I didn't reply and he sat down next to me and we both cried and when I finally talked all I said was

" you could have saved him"

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Sorry for the sadness I just wanted to do a song Fic and this was a song I thought of and I relate yeah so sorry for the tears and I'm going to go sleep. Next update will be happier.