Regret is stronger than gratitude...

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"Well, your first meet was kind of cute I Guess "Lia exclaimed after Chan finished telling them about his and Lino's first meet.

   "Appa, I can tell it was love at first sight."- Lina.

"Yea it was but, I was young at that time for me love was just a word that I used in cards and stuff, falling in love with a guy was beyond my imagination." -Chan.

"So, dad was gay from the start."-Lia.

"Lia bisexuality exists"- for sure Chan was offended. 

"Dad, she has a point though, never mind you continue"-Lina. 

"After a few weeks, the new session had started, I still couldn't get Lino of my mind I didn't know why this was happening to me, it was that I had a crush on him, but I was just a kid. During the lunch break I saw him again sitting alone at the very end of the playground. He wasn't eating his lunch just fiddling with fingers, I went near him. when I was young, I always like to ruffle the hair of people a liked. But when I raised my hand, he flinched and backed away. I could sense the fear in his eyes. It was like he was begging for something, His eyes asked for forgiveness." 

"Please no" he mumbled in a pleading tone. 

I was confused by this action of his, why was he acting like I was going to hit him? I just wanted to say hi and talk a bit, "Hey, it's me Chan, we met at the business event do you remember?" I asked him.

As soon he realized it was me his tense eyes seemed to calm down, he stared at my face for a solid minute. with a smirk playing on his lips he got up, bought his hand up to my face and touched my nose making me blush crimson.  "The bis nose guy" he spoke giggling.

I think he was expecting me to giggle to, but I was offended I frowned and said, "hey having a perfect nose doesn't mean that you can offend me."

"Bell Sory"

"it's well."

he gave me a 'I didn't ask look' and sat down.

"Eat your food." I told him.

he grabbed his sandwich with his little hands and started to eat it, all I wanted to do was click a picture of him and save it forever. 

He patted a spot beside him, indicating me to sit down. I noticed everything his milky skin, small hands covered up with his hoodie sleeve up to his knuckles. his injured finger on which I never knew I would put a ring on."  

       Chan smiled a bit picking up the ring from the box, regret and sorrow reflecting from his eyes Anne Frank's words were true.  

  "Dead people receive more flowers than the living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude."

Chan regrated every hurtful word he lashed out at Minho, when he had betrayed him. he hated what he had done to minho when he got drunk that day minho had screamed no but chan hadn't listened.

His lips quivered tears threatening to fall, no one knew that his beautiful smile hid a world of pain, regret and anger towards himself.

Chan gripped the ring in his hands, the same hands that had raised two invaluable souls, comforted Minho since he was a kid, also the same hands who had pinned minho down to the bed forcefully.

but minho had enjoyed it......................

He was ashamed of himself; a tear left his left eye.

"D-Dad?" a faint voice bought Chan back from his hidden side. 

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