since our channels have kind of blown up on the internet we've all been so consumed in work that the last time we all properly hung out, for fun without making any context, was the day after mine and Johnnies first kiss which was about a week ago. this means that hopes of potentially progressing our relationship has been on hold for the past week, it's not like we have gone completely back to just friends but we went from barely flirting to making out in bed so fast that it kind of feels stagnant now, even though it shouldn't because when we do see each other we're more affectionate than we ever have been but i miss the rush of trying something new with him, we also haven't had a chance to talk about our feelings at all we just have some mutual agreement that there is at least something there and the annoying thing is that we can't really do anything about it.
work has been slowly taking over more and more of our lives and it's not that i wish we didn't blow up i just wish it was possible to slowly give ourselves more and more work but due to the nature of our job we couldn't. i feel even worse for Jake and Johnnie though because they have to balance this new youtube fame with making new music and then making new music videos for said music, Tara and i have offered to help them as much as we can but because we don't have music careers there isn't a whole bunch we can do for them.
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after posting on instagram i left my phone up on my desk and just laid on my bed trying to take a break from any form of social media as it has been consuming my life recently but that got very boring very quickly so i decided to go and bake something since Tara got me the Minecraft recipe book for christmas last year i wouldn't have to use my phone. as i was mid mix, making my cake, my front door unlocked meaning one of two people are about to walk in Tara or Johnnie. i gave Johnnie a key to my apartment because i started locking myself away and working for ungodly amounts of hours not replying to anyone so he now has a key to come and pull me away from my computer but most of the time he just uses it to come and hang out with me.
"Tara?" i yelled out, she always my first guess because i'm more used to her rocking up unannounced than Johnnie. "nope" his voice yelled back, i turned around to see him shuffle round the corner in a tracksuit i bought him. he used to always come over in fucking skinny jeans and it made me physicallyuncomfortable so i decided to buy him a couple tracksuits to wear when we were just chilling, not planning on going anywhere but the sofa and the bed. "you look so cute in that." i commented shuffling towards him, abandoning my half mixed cake to give him a hug. "i'm still getting used to my trousers not being suck to my legs." he laughed, pulling out of the hug but still holding my waist before pecking me. "i couldn't bare looking at you in skinny jeans on my bed, made me want to crawl out of my skin," i laughed back walking back to finish my cake and put it in the oven, "it's not that bad." he tried defending his actions but i just looked over at him with a look that said 'really?' he just flipped me off and went into my room. i put the timer on for my cake and went to join him.
i walked in my bedroom to Johnnie playing fucking fortnite on my computer which, that alone, makes me regret giving him my computer password. "did you seriously come over just to play fornite on my computer?" i asked looking unimpressed in the doorway, "not just to play fortnite but it was definitely in the plan, also Jake says hi." he responded not looking away from the screen. "you're also on call to Jake?" i asked sounding a little pissed but i don't think he massively picked up on it, "yeah..." he sounded like it was just obvious and a normal thing to do, i walked over and stood next to him with my arms crossed, "bro." i said with a blank face, that made it whip his head to look up at me. "don't call me bro." he said seeming a little offended almost, "why not? what you're doing seems like a very 'bro' thing." i retaliated, i'm not even sure what i meant but i was just getting more pissed off now so i didn't care, he took his hand away from the keyboard, removed my headphones and turned the chair to face me. "but i'm not your bro Nova, am i?" now he was getting pissed off and i could feel our first petty argument coming on. "then what are you because you've just come over to my place to sit in my room, on call to your friend who you live with may i add, and play fucking fortnite Johnnie." this is not the way i wanted to discuss where we stand with each other but it's happening now. "because you were making a fucking cake Nova i don't get why it's such a big deal?!" we're both now gradually getting louder but i really don't want to get in a yelling match over this. "fucking... whatever Johnnie, fine do what you fucking want i don't care." with that i just left.. to go check on my cake i was making.
i didn't want to go back into my room because i knew i'd just restart our argument, but my phone was still in my room so i opted to just sit on my kitchen island and stare at the oven until my cake was done. i only had about 5 minutes of peace before Johnnie reemerged from my room looking sorry for himself. "Nov.." he begun "Johnnie don't fucking speak to me right now i do not want to hear what you have to say." i quickly interrupted him, i don't know why this has pissed me off so much but it just has and i'm not ready to listen to his shitty fucking explanation yet. "okay." he said quietly and just sat on the counter next to me and also waited for my cake to be done. after a slightly awkward 10 minutes of silence the oven started beeping so i slid off the counter and quietly took the cake out the oven and put it on the side to cool, whilst doing so i came up with a whole speech to say to him about why i was annoyed and a segway to calmly talk about what we are.
however once i'd actually walked over to stand in between his legs from where he was sat i looked up at him and just completely folded... fuck, he has a bigger effect on me than i thought. i ended up just smiling and resting my forehead onto his chest trying to compose myself and actually talk to him but before i could he opened his stupid mouth again. "you still mad bro?" yes. i am now. "oh fuck you actually." i gently shoved his shoulder and walked away from him but before i could get very far he caught up to me and wrapped his arm round my waist pulling me back towards him, "i'm joking... Nov i'm joking." i tried not to let me smile show to prove i'm still pissed but it was very hard, "i'm sorry, but i'm also definitely not your 'bro' okay?" he spoke gently right into my ear which was enough for my smile to break out and i just melted into his touch, spinning round to face him, his face also lit up when he saw me smiling. "i know Johnnie but..." fuck this is actually really scary, "but?" he prompted me to continue, "but... what are we?" i did it, i'm a big brave girl and i did it. "whatever you want us to be, as long as i have you in my company somehow i'll be happy." he responded and i could literally cry on the spot right now but alas i hold it together. "i don't.." i start but rethink my wording a couple time, "i- don't take this the wrong way, it's nothing to do with you at all but i-..." get to the point Nova fuck me, "i don't- i can't- not yet at least... i can't be your girlfriend." i finally spit it out and bring my hands down to fiddle with them giving me something else to look at that isn't his stare. "and i get if you want to end whatever this is because of-" i start but he grab my hands interlocking our fingers and bring them to his side making me look at him. "that's so so okay Nova i understand, we can just keep doing what we're doing and take it slow... okay?" whatever did i do to deserve him oh my days. i really don't know how to respond so i just give him a kiss as a thank you for being so understanding and sweet to me, i think he understands.
we fell into a comfortable silence accompanied by a hug, "did Jake hear our whole argument?" i asked, "yeahh... he told me i fucked up and that i need to-" he paused to hold up quotation marks "'go get my girl back'" i just laughed at his response pulling him back into our hug, "you got her back don't worry"
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yoooo! i'm not dead :3 next chapter may be a little smutty ngl👀 if that's not ur thing do not worry you can skip that chapter there wont be anything crucial to the plot. it'll probably be short coz i'm still not sure how i feel about writing it but i will give the people what they want but dont be surprised if its cringy asf because idk how to write that shii.
as always i hope you enjoyed leave any comments or suggestions pls <3
