[december 19th, 2023]
you ever see a couple that fits everything you want and you immediately feel depressed over the fact that you don't have that? it's embarrassing how much it makes my heart ache, especially when i'm the type of person that despises romance solely due to the fact that i genuinely feel like i don't deserve it because of the way i look. i feel so fucking unworthy of it that it makes me feel shameful and even sick to my stomach that i actually have the desire for it just idly sitting there in the back of my mind. i cannot picture anyone falling in love with me ever, and i feel like i'm prohibited for wanting it.
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