Keep dreaming- J.G

017: Sorry?

after a few weeks ago I've been spacing everyone but my sisters out of my life. Tara, Jake, Johnnie, my mom, Sam, Colby, Kat, and Celina have been texting me non-stop. Im honestly in love with Hollywood. I have a boyfriend finally, his name is Mason. we have a lot in common, I think it's meant to be a distraction from Johnnie. Did I think he was the one? of course not! He wasn't into a lot. He was a type of stay at home guy when I wanted to party, but when I wanted to stay home he wanted to party. I woke up from Mason gone this morning so I just got ready and started watching obx over and over. Was I tired? Yes, but it was very interesting even though I've seen it a thousand times. It kinda reminded me of Johnnie. He cheated on me a thousand times but if I could go back in time, I would. I would a thousand times. I hear a knock from my window. I didn't pay attention and I turned the opposite way from the window facing the door, I hear it open. "I have a loaded Glock on my dresser" I say putting my face In my pillow groaning. "yeah sorry. you just were ignoring us, so we had to come." Jake said climbing in the room. I instantly get up to hug him. "don't worry your man is coming!" Tara said hugging me as Johnnie went through the window. I look at him and back at Tara and Jake. "well hello scar? Still upset?" Johnnie asks. "how could I not? you proposed to me and then kiss her!?'' I say "I wasn't attracted to her! SHE KISSED ME!" He said defending himself. "OKAY? DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY DIFFERENT! I LOVED YOU JOHNNIE. NOW IM ACTUALLY OVER YOU!" I say "but babe..." he said grabbing my waist. I slap his hand and I stepped back. "don't babe me! I have a boyfriend! He should be here any minu-'' I get cut off by a door opening. "huh sorry I'm late, scar. I got stuck in traffic. Who are these people?" he asks "oh hey May, it's just my friends and stuff. You know? here's Jake. there's Tara. And there's... Johnnie" I say "oh well okay? I'm gon talk to Lilith!" he said kissing my cheek and going downstairs. "really scar, a dread head boy?" Johnnie asks. "yeah, just my type. Dread heads. I don't know, I don't really like black haired boys. I mean I loved one really much and he proposed to me and he fell for another girl, so yeah. past is the past. we can put that all behind us! Friends?" I say putting my hand out for Johnnie. I wasn't over him but I couldn't just get back with him instantly that would make me look desperate. "friends. . ." Johnnie said looking at his feet. "yeah well why are y'all here?'' I ask "because we want you home!" Jake said. "so just break up with mas?" I ask "no just like being him if you wanna go back to la?" Tara said "yeah okay" I say " well anyways... wanna go somewhere?" Johnnie said as I smile. "yeah that would be great actually Johnnie." I say. "okay come on." he said grabbing my hand and climbing out the window with me leaving Jake and Tara by nobody but themselves. "where are we going?" I ask as we get onto a cute little bike. "you'll see!" he said. "okay bitch!" I say pushing him and we fall off the bike since I was on the same bike. We fell and started laughing so hard, it felt like we did a ab workout. "AUGH you BITC-" Johnnie said but we saw little kids out. "BITCH STOP!" I say but then shushing myself. "sorry kids, he's kinda autistic and his name is bitch. It's kinda weird but it's his real name" I say. "oh okay, hey bitch." the kids said running up to Johnnie and smiling. " call me Johnnie?" he said. "no I think he prefers the other name, but anyways kids we have to go, it was fun talking to y'all." I say getting up. "okay you crazy couple!" the mother of the kids said. "oh actually we are ex fiancees!" I say. "ohhh okay we'll have a great time!" she said as we leave. "that was awkward.." Johnnie said laughing as we arrive to the place. it was dark. only filled with a few pole lights. there was a bench with a picnic basket on it, it was beautiful. "omg, Johnnie..." I say. "you don't like it? omg I told Jake to pick somewhere else, I knew you wouldn't like it. " he said "no Johnnie, look at it! it's perfect, the way the light shines. the way the benches sit , the way you are here, everything bout it is perfect!" I say "Really? I don't know." he said scratch the back of his neck. I try to kiss his cheek but he moved his head so we did it on the lips. "oh I'm sorry I meant to kiss your cheek" I say stepping away and looking on the ground. I get a notification from a Instagram post from Mason. it was Mason and a random girl kissing on his neck. tears formed from my eyes and fell. I started texting him.