His Property

Twenty Three

Alec couldn't breathe. His lips parting as he took a step back. He couldn't believe it. It wasn't true. He wasn't dating Jessica. They only hooked up once. No strings attached. He knew she was crazy, look at how she's been acting ever since she had seen Blake and Alec getting close. Deep down the older boy couldn't believe that Blake believed this. Believed what Jessica had told him.

"You don't believe that, do you" Alec asked only to receive a saddened look. In reality Blake didn't know what to believe anymore, who to believe. Deep down he knew Alec would never do that, especially to him. But part of him just couldn't comprehend with the real world and his imagination.

"I don't know what to believe anymore Alec" Blake softly admitted. Wiping the tears that stained his cheeks Blake felt pain course through his skin. He hated being conscious, especially right now. Letting his eyes meet the older boys once more Blake only wanted to be in his grasp. He didn't want to but that's all he could think about. He missed him, he needed him, but couldn't have him. It was merely like fate had shown they couldn't be in each others lives.

"If I was dating her would I really be here right now, I wouldn't even show my face, I'd be a coward Blake, I'd never be able to hurt you like that, never in this life"

Hearing these words Blake found himself breaking down again. His hands covering his face, cold sweat taking over his shivering body. His emotions going haywire.

"I'm sorry" Was all the smaller boy could let out. His voice breaking, teeth clattering. The fact he believed Jessica after everything she's done, said to him. He believed her over the boy he's come to love. He felt ashamed of himself, disappointed. Feeling a certain pair of hands wrap around his wrist Blake lunged at the older boy. His arms wrapping around Alec's neck, face in the crook of his skin. Hearing the older boy slightly grunt Blake felt the pain softly going away.

"You have nothing to be sorry about baby" hearing Alec's soft voice only made Blake break more. Especially that nickname he'd come to love hearing slip off the jocks tongue. Blake couldn't help but also chuckle at this statement. Being in Alecs grasp like this again only sent his emotions spiralling out of control. He missed it, too much.

Feeling the older boy pull away Blake did the same. His eyes meeting Alec's dark ones as tears slowly brimmed his eyes once more. God why did he cry so much, was it his emotions? All the pain he was feeling through out his body? He couldn't take it, it was too much for him to handle all at once. Just thinking about Alec sent his body into panic mode, being in touch with the boy again? God it was even worse than he had imagined.

"I wouldn't lie to you Blake, never" Giving the older boy a small smile he rubbed his nose. His skin burning with overstimulation.

"I know you wouldn't Alec" Hearing these words Alec felt his heart tighten. God he had messed up badly, he had everything he needed in his life in his grasp and he had simply pushed it away. He had ruined it all. Caressing the smaller boys cheek Alec felt his skin burn, electricity shoot up his body. He wanted, needed this feeling back. The feeling that made him feel safe, made him feel himself. That's what Blake could bring out, bring out his true side. The side no one's ever seen before. 

"I'm so sorry Blake, I fucked this up, I was a coward, I didn't stand my ground" The older boy admitted, tears threatening to brim his eyes. His hands slightly shaking as he held his boys face in his grasp. The urge to close the gap and claim those lips again. Show Blake he wanted him, he belonged to him. Show Blake he still cared about him, god he felt so much about this boy he couldn't comprehend living without him.

Feeling the smaller boy run his hand through Alec's hair, Alec melted into his touch.

"It's not your fault Alec, you did what was best, so I didn't get hurt, your right, we don't know what your dad could do, we know what's he's capable of, you were only protecting me, even if it meant never seeing each other again"

Biting his bottom lip Alec rested his head on Blake's chest. His hands grazing up the smaller boys arms. Letting Blake mess with his hair Alec couldn't help but feel at ease. That's all the smaller boy made him feel, safe, complete.

"Getting that phone call, that's you had been hit by a car, hearing the condition you were it, it broke me, sent me into a spiral, I know I shouldn't care, shouldn't even be here. I was the one that pushed you away, broke things off all because I was scared, god I'm so selfish, you don't understand the things you do to me Blake, you make my body burn, you make my emotions spiral just by hearing your voice, feeling your touch, it's like your a drug, your addictive, I'm addicted to you and only you, I've never felt this way for someone before"

Saying these words Alec knew how he felt. It had finally hit him, he could return the feeling back. Lifting his head up his gaze immediately met his boys. Tears slowly escaping his eyes. His heart beating like never before. This feeling was overwhelming, claustrophobic. He hated it yet loved it when it was because of Blake. Leaning his head on the smaller boys he closed the gap. Their lips slowly colliding. Feeling Blake return the kiss Alec couldn't help but smile. If this was their last kiss then so be it. Anything to show this meant everything to Alec. To show Blake how he truly feels.

Biting Down on the smaller boys bottom lip once more Alec slowly pulled away. The need to go back and claim those soft lips again. Keep kissing them to show who they belong to. But be couldn't do that. Watching as tears attacking his boys eyes Alec softly wiped them away. His mouth opening to let these next simple yet meaningful words to escape.

"I love you Blake"

Blake broke. He had broke for the many times the older by had made him. Tears escaping his eyes once more. Hands covering his face. He couldn't believe it, this wasn't happening. Alec had broke him, broke him down to his core. He thought he'd never hear someone tell him those words, mean them. Yet here he was, the jock he thought he'd never have in his life telling him those simple words.

"I love you too Alec" Blake softly responded. The older boy wrapping his arms softly around the smaller boy. Tears leaving his own eyes. Feeling Blake wrap his arms around his neck Alec couldn't breathe. He finally figured out these feelings. The way the smaller boy made him feel. He could finally show him how he felt, what he meant to him.

"Your the one I needed, your the one I wanted, I couldn't describe it at first, when I first saw you, my heart skipped a beat, it did something it's never done before, want something, want something I could only have and that's was you, you made me feel these alienated emotions, your smile, your voice, god just you, you, anything about you makes me smile, makes me wanna claim you as my own, keep you all for myself, I've never wanted anything more in my life than I have wanted you, I Alec love you Blake, I always will, wether we're together or apart"

Blake didn't understand how much Alec wanted to ask him a simple question, one that would bind them together. So the smaller boy knows who he belongs too, who is his. But Alec couldn't, not yet.

"When that basketball hit my face I thought you was going to hit me, shout at me, but you didn't Alec, you were different, you were the one who started this relationship, you were the one who showed me love, something not many people have showed me before, you also do things to me I can't explain, but all I knew since you first took me to that cabin is that your the one my body wanted, the one I wanted to have in my life till I died, when you broke us off I was broken, I couldn't see a life without you, god is it bad to say that I care about you more then my fucking parents, because it's true and it always will be, you came into my life breaking down my walls, yet here you are building them up again all because of a few words, we may not be able to be together but just knowing you feel the same couldn't make me any happier, I love you Blake"

Placing one last soft kiss upon the smaller boys lips Alec pushed himself up. A soft smile on his face as he wiped the stained tears that occupied his cheeks. Running his hand through his boys hair one last time he turned to leave. He knew what he had to do, to make himself better, to get himself back on track. Turning to face Blake one last time he gave him a small smile.

"Whatever happens next let it happen but just know if I get a chance to claim you as my own Blake, that's the first thing I'll pick in life"

With that Alec left. His emotions like a rollercoaster. Heading out into the car park he lit up a cigarette. Taking a long puff he looked around him. That same small boy on his mind. He knew what he had to do, even if it meant leaving his dad, he'd do it, all for Blake, only for him. Why? Because Alec knew now, knew that the only person he wanted in his life was the boy he had come to love. That boy was Blake.