🖤His soul tainted by the devil 🖤was my angel call🤍 KIMCHAY AU 🤍

18. Crisis 🌩

Once upon a dream, it felt like this, once upon a morning and a night, and an afternoon or at midnight. Once upon a life, cherishing and being loved had been looked at, thinking of, as everyone could have been. And once upon a demon, this feeling suddenly became a miracle and most of all a danger before melting into something sour. A menace before merging with reality, before realizing that if the nightmare was real, every once upon a dream wasn't.

Only the idea of love was already corrupted, as if the meaning could be of different shapes, as if in the end the emotion reflected as a well known mirror everywhere in all media had more dark side than it was shown. It was put under the light that some love could be toxic, could be complicated, could be badly obsessiveness and could only bring disasters. However, it was not that clear that this wasn't love, this was something else, this was the sister or brother or even twin of love, in another dimension, close to hell. And the idea that love could make you travel inside of that dimension was also something definitely not believable before being trapped in it.

The surfaces between Kim taking a ticket for love but arriving somewhere else, and Kim taking a ticket for Porchay were not that different. Even if the boy was a sigh of comfort and that a huge part of trusting him, friendly trusting him, was already on, it didn't change that the two tickets had the same purpose at first, and it was this beginning which was haunting Kim's at every hour. He just didn't know when it would change direction and if it would, he wasn't ready not he thought strong enough to live this another time, and his brain was such on a defensive side, because no one could know, or more like now that he knew it could happen he couldn't act as if it wasn't impossible.

Kim got to hug himself that night, hug himself and repeat that everything would be alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, everything would be alright, alright. Porchay had such a soft gesture this morning, bringing a cup of coffee, different for him, only for him different and he smiled and he went to work and Kim melted, directly, quickly, he melted under that hot coffee. But now he was cold, he felt really cold because he was having the last fever of the warmth he had felt, and had felt it which means that a part of him was reacting differently than before. It was not like a friend, it was as if this warm thing in his hands had power on him. Power was the terrifying enemy.

When the demon called and tried to push his ways, the upper part of Kim which was under the dark spell thought that he had wanted everything, it had made him think that he was willing for everything, even if the under parts of Kim felt that something was wrong, it didn't change anything. And now he wasn't sure at one hundred percent or more like he was scared to be sure that everything was of his own choice. He was persuaded so he tried to persuade himself but it didn't work like turning a button. 

And he didn't even think that it could be a complete healing, because deep inside the ashes would be there, and even if the dust was pushed away it didn't change that his ground of the soul had been burnt and it couldn't be changed, no more flowers could bloom from that place. However, some flowers could still try to overwhelm the environment, but it would never change that some parts after the wind could suddenly move and make Kim feel as before. It was the inevitable equation.

Though Kim made a decision while repeating again and again that it would be alright, alright alright, alright and alright. If he was scared of power, if he was scared that Porchay's shadow could make him forget his own, he just had to take the power too. He was able to do it.

The next day, Kim came with some food, some snacks for everyone of course, but Porchay had a special one, his favorite one he knew by heart what it was. And he felt good and it didn't look that suspicious even if Yok had a knowing smile but it was Yok, she couldn't be defeated. The boy understood the treatment he got and his eyes were sparkling and his heart was racing and he became so red and Kim thought that it was really endearing and then he saw him coming closer and Porchay just smiled tenderly, thanking him with a high pitched voice. And Kim was melting, but was he melting because of the power he had on Porchay or because Porchay was so adorable that he couldn't resist?