Chapter 10: A Test

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Raven's POV

I can't believe I almost fell for that again.

I was so close to giving in.

I should be more careful next time. I honestly thought it won't affect me anymore but it did.

I was just a second close to kissing her.

Thank goodness, I was able to resist before it happens.. again.

It's been three days since that night. That night at Simon's birthday that I've been trying to bury down my memory.

Mostly failing to do so because every time I see Maddison, I am instantly reminded of that night and all the other times as well..

So I try my best to avoid seeing her as much.


We haven't been riding together which helped with my plan.

Travis been the one giving her a ride to school since then.

I mean I still see her at school and at home but I actively try to get a good distance away from her.

Whenever she tries to reach out, I made sure to show her that I'm busy and had no time for whatever she wants from me.

Damn, I'm such a rude person..

I just don't want to take that chance. I've tried putting everything behind me but it got me in a place where I almost regress back to my old self.

So this seems to be my only option for now until I find something better.


Right now, Ethan and I are rehearsing together. Travis says he will try to catch up. I doubt if he will get in here in time. He's been busy hanging out with Maddison to spare us any.

"Rave, I thought about looking for a substitute guitarist.. What do you think?" Ethan brought up a question.

"What?" I ask feeling a bit confuse.


"Well, just in case.. You've seen how Travis been recently. Don't you think it's affecting our band? Of course, I'm happy that he is finding joy in his personal life. Maddison and him.. I mean whatever they got going on.. He is still welcome to join whenever. It's not like I'm thinking about replacing him but I just think it might be better to have a back up plan.." he explain further.

I knew Travis was serious about courting her. He personally ask for my permission even when he didn't need to.

"Have you talk to him?" I ask.

He tap his sticks on the table. A habit he has whenever he is thinking.


"I haven't had the chance to talk to him but before anything else.. I do want to know your opinions before I make any decisions." He answer.

I nodded in understanding.


"I will go along with whatever you two want." I answer.

I just don't feel good about this. Travis was the one who recruited me in the first place. Ethan said we're not replacing him but it feels like we are by looking for alternatives.


"Sorry to put you on the spot. I guess I'm a little desperate right now." He says after a long sighed.

Something must be bothering him cause he seem to not be himself.


"What's wrong? If it's okay for me to ask?" I'm careful about it. I don't really like to pry but he seems to be in too much distress.

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