(This chapter is a little messy so my apologies)
The feeling of the cold water serounding him took over his entire body.
Scaramouche felt himself go to the depths of darkness while he was unconcious only to feel warmth moments later.
When he finally opens his eyes he sees Kazuha on him, his lips on his to breath air into him giving him CPR.
He was swiftly pulled from that coldness he felt from before and his cheeks grow warm and read, he feels warm over his entire body despite him knowing it was not Kazuha his intention to make it seem like a kiss; he was saving his life after all.
Scaramouche pushes Kazuha off him so he could roll onto his stomach in the sand and cough up some water. "You disgust me-..."Kazuha was surprised at first when the other is full of life again yet his expression softens and a small smile comes onto his face as he can understand where this reaction is coming from. "We are stranded on this small island in Inazuma. We cannot swim to the main land" he informs and stands up. Kazuha has been on this island for a while now so he already had a fire going and had made a small tent before Scara came washing ashore.
The other looks down at his hands fingers digging into the sand as he let's out a deep annoyed sigh. He would stand and walk over to sit by the fire and sit beneath the tent with Kazuha before he wipes his mouth to get the feeling of the other his lips from his mouth.
"I don't care if you will safe my life with that. Don't ever do that again"Clearly seeing how disgusted the other with it he hands the other some food he managed to make above the campfire to distract from it "You can have the tent...I'll sleep on the sa-"
"Can you stop being kind to me? It is annoying especially since I know you will just-...leave"
Kazuha falls silent.
The blond is always kind to everybody unless that person truly wrongs him. For once he remains silent and just stares into the fire.
When the other was finished eating he gives Scaramouche his food to eat since he wasn't feeling hungry anymore "I understand you may have interpreted it the wrong way yet I only did it to safe your life and clear your lungs from water""I'm a lifeless puppet. Doesn't everybody know that?! I'm nothing but a stupid doll so I don't have lungs! I don't have-..."
"Then why can you eat? Why do you move like me; a human? Why do you not have doll joints? Why can you drown? Why do you cough up water like a human? Perhaps the shogun abandoned you because she wanted a true puppet yet her design failed and you were slowly turning and becoming more alive and human. A doll doesn't have emotions...doesn't feel disgust..." Although it was harsh....it was true though.
Scaramouche didn't get angry at this yet he was left speechless thinking about it.
Could that actually be it?
All his life he had been searching for a purpose and heart yet he had it all along? He must ask the shogun herself if he wishes to know the true awnser yet he doesn't ever want to see her again.
He didn't blame Kazuha for saying the truth no mather how harsh it could have come across.
Scara would have been fed up with himself already; it is surprise it took Kazuha so long to tell him how it is.
It did make sense to him.
Could a doll or puppet really eat? Really move like a human did? Feel such strong emotions?
This theory made more sense then what he had been thinking all this time.
"I'm.....sorry" he mumbles out no mather how much he hated to say it.
"You saved my life...I should thank you instead..." he takes a deep breath since this was hard for him to say. Nahida taught him kindness so he thinks back to her when saying this. He misses his new home...he misses sumeru.
"I'm just on edge because I'm he-...""I know" he said and he wishes to give the other his hand a light squeeze to signal everything is already yet he didn't touch the other his hand at all.
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A roaring storm from within [Kazuha x Scara (trans)]
FanfictionScaramouche who battles with so many thoughts and with himself each day has hard time believing Kazuha actually forgave him. Overthinking the whole situation he tries to push the other away but will it work? Will he succeed and keeping distance or w...