TWICE Han Gia | Sceneries Short Story Oneshot 10th member

You Get Me

OmG I love all the b-sides in With You-th <3

I heard that Twice contract is not going to be long *crying* but I'm not sure if it's true

And the lyrics in One Spark feels like they are saying their byes to Onces

I don't know if it's me that I'm overthinking or what, but it's on my mind for a few days already and I am very worried about it

Another angst fic since I'm really in the mood for it recently, I definitely didn't write my heart out and changing my experience into an idol setting

After a few years into the girls debut, they finally found out that their maknae is actually dealing with anxiety and depression.

It seems surprising to the girls at first, Gia is always their vitamin and happy pill of the girls.

Although she's quiet usually, but that doesn't mean she fail to bring out the happy feelings in her.

She always have a smile on her face, no matter what happen to her or the girls, bring out the positive vibe is always her first priorities.

Most of the time the kid never want to let the people around her to feel the negative emotions in her, she thinks it it will brings other people's moods down as well, and she never wants the girls became sad because of her.

And that being one of the reasons, Gia never want to burden the others from what's on her mind.

However, as the years as an idol grows, apparently that her worries only grown instead of shrink.

And debuting with the girls at the age of 15 might not be a perfect decision after all.

Schedules pick up rapidly, comebacks and comebacks, photoshoots and photoshoots, interviews and interviews, they are all pilling up more and more.

Soon, Gia started to feel the effects on her.

It is the fact that everything she does it has to be perfect, the dance practices, vocal improvements, her stage presences.

The weird and bad feeling in her heart is getting worsen, but she's scared to tell anyone or just talk about it.

What if people will start to treat me differently? What will they think about me?

Gia wants to tell herself that she's overthinking, but she couldn't. And there's no one to tell her that since she also never let anyone goes into her inner heart.

The maknae started to take medication herself, not telling her Unnies at all, hiding the pills under her pillow or in the drawer of her desk.

In a few years of hiding, no matter how deep is it, it will soon get discovered by others with the amount of time they are spending with each other in the dorm.

It is when a few of the girls found Gia in her own recording studio in the JYPE building.

The moment they open up the door, they could hear loud sobbing noise, and a person's hard breathings at instant.

And when they looked at Gia's usual seat in front of her mixing desk and stuff she used as she makes music.

They end up finding the kid in the middle of her panic attack.

The few girls used a good half an hour to calm her down.

And she's willing to tell them slow and steady, about always panicking of all the stress she's under as being an idol.

Gia wants to find the balance from her personal life and idol life, but it's impossible to her.

And when the girls figured out it is worst than they thought, they didn't know it's that bad.

It breaks their hearts painfully.

Gia could see that easily.

"And this is the reason I don't want to tell you! See?! You are all hurting because of me!"

So all the moments that the girls thought it's normal for Gia, and it might just be her, it's because of her anxiety and depression.

Soon later, all the girls of the group realised that it happens more frequently.

All the sudden disappeared of the maknae in the middle of a meal, or just being missing from her bed in the middle of the night, or it might be her being gone in a shoot for a rush to the bathroom.

It all suddenly snapped. It makes sense.

They all know that she's hurting, and they failed to find out.

"Please Unnies ... don't blame yourselves. It's me that I didn't say anything, it's me that I hide it too well. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have let you know, I could have hide it better -"

All just the girls want for their maknae is to be healthily, and happy. But it might be a much harder task than it sounds like.

"There are millions and millions of people having the same situation as me, being as sad as me. And they deserves to get heal first, not me."

Gia didn't say anything of these to any of the girls, they understand she will never have the bravity to do so.

But it hurts them badly when she found all these words in her random dribbles and drawings in her small notebook.

They have been seriously considering to put her in hiatus for a while, just for her to heal and take a break.

However, Gia refuses to.

"I don want to make Once worry about me! I want them to have person they could think when they are sad, or depressed. Believing that they could survived it and do well on their life! Just like how I tried!"

"But you exhausted yourself -"

"It's worth it," she said in a quick voice.

"What -?"

"I want to spend all the time I get with all of you, who knows when we will go onto our own ways -"

Gia felt a few tight arms wrapped around her, she instantly melt into their touch.

All the girls knows this is the risk of being an idol, always in their edge of collapsing mentally.

Sadly, this is the dark side of working in this industry.

Should I open an Instagram account for a broadcast channel? We can just chat and talks about Twice.

Since I don't have any Once friends it's really hard to keep my passion for the girls myself haha

Hehe, and I'm just curious and it's completely off topic, if Gia is really going to date other idols for example, who do you have in mind?

I'm been thinking of JK (I just feel like it I don't know) And I kind of have the whole rumours and stuff happened in my head already -