Did You Miss Me?

Chapter 9

Two chapters in the space of a day?! It's an apology for not updating in so long <3

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That night I kept waking up, having weird and vivid dreams of Jake and I getting married, and when it came to the part where anyone mentioning a reason why we shouldn't be wed, everyone cheering 'It's not real', and I'd wake up in tears. I wanted it to be real but it just wasn't, at least I didn't feel like it was. I picked my phone up to look at the time. It was only 4:30. If I couldn't sleep this time of the night I'd wake Jake up and talk to him, but he was the reason I wasn't sleeping, I couldn't tell him that I slept for only half an hour the entire night because he proposed to me.

I found mum on the contacts list as hit dial as I sneaked out of the bedroom and down the stairs and into the dining room, silently closing the door and turning a little lamp on, stretching out across the sofa wearing nothing but one of Jake's shirts and some underwear. As the dial tone stretched out I remembered us earlier that evening cooking, and how I always loved cooking with Jake, and my mind flashed to what it would be like if I got pregnant, walking around the house in one of his shirts and my underwear.

Mum answered the phone groggily. 

"Jj? What's up, sweetie?" I didn't know what to say, despite all the bad things she did, she was there and I could talk to her easily, when I couldn't turn to Jake, I knew I had mum, and she knew that although she was the second option for me to turn to when my mind wasn't at ease, she was still an option which made her feel better. I hoped.

"Jake asked me to marry him" I didn't even say hi, or ask how she was, or how George was, I just came out with the problem, because I knew that if I created small talk, we'd be on the phone for much longer than I wanted to be. There was shuffling, and it sounded like mum was getting out of bed and walking down the stairs herself. I took it as a good sign, that she actually wanted to talk as opposed to just telling me to calm down and think about it in the morning.

"That sounds like you're upset by this" she said once the shuffling had calmed down. I heard her voice dripping with concern, and I wasn't sure whether she was worried about me, or my relationship with Jake, or even if she was just worried she couldn't find the TV remote.

"It's the way he said it, mum. He was talking about plans to get back at Sam for trying so hard to get in contact with me, and then he just came out with he'd like to marry me, and it just feels like he wants it to spite him"

I vented to mum on the phone for at least ten minutes, not even trying to hide my sniffling. Mum knew when I was crying, she didn't need to see me struggle to keep my voice in check, or trying to hold tears back. She could just tell. 

"Marriage is such a huge thing, and to do it just to spite someone isn't anything anyone would think of unless they were ridiculously rich with a poodle named Petunia." I sniffled a small laugh as I let her continue. "Look, Jj, Sam was a huge part of your life, and Jake is even more so, but the fact is that he wants to marry you, and you want to marry him don't you?" I replied a short answer, one I didn't even have to think about. 

"Yes." was all I said, and as I said that I heard footsteps on the stairs. I whispered quickly to mum "I gotta go, bye, love you bye" and hung up and pretended to be asleep. I heard the door open and I could feel Jake's gaze on me. He stood there for what felt like an eternity, I risked a quick flash of opening my eyes into slits and sure enough, he was leaning against the door frame gazing at me. I moved slightly, trying to move my arm over my face so I could smile without giving away that I was awake and fully aware of what was happening.

Eventually the door shut again and I heard his footsteps go back upstairs. I clicked open my phone again and saw a text from mum. 

"I say go for it. You're both in love, you're young and have many reasons to"