best ex-lover

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best ex-lover
2:30am

gemini
hi baby, it's already been a year
i still can't believe that my world you would leave
i cant say goodbye because that would make it real,
i was stupid and selfish
for your own life you would steal

so i am writing this in the hopes that you will here see,
that your poems were not stupid
it was only me.
i am a fool for hurting someone so kind and gentle as a dove.

fourth
gemini.

gemini
phuwin told me something today

fourth
i told you i dont want to speak with you anymore, liar

gemini
please, talk to me

fourth
why are you being weird?
you literally haven't texted me from your old number ever since we broke up.
why are you now?

gemini
if i say that i love you and i never stopped, would you believe me?

fourth
you are full of bullshit as always
you cant just say that
YOU broke up with me
A WHOLE YEAR AGO

gemini
i know and im sorry but please give me a chance to explain everything

fourth
what is there to explain gemini?
how you treated me like i wasn't even a thought in your head after 4 years together?
and now you wanna come back and pretend like nothing happened?

gemini
im the only one
no one knows you better than i do fourth and you know that

fourth
i bet my next boyfriend will know me better than you ever had.
i dont care asshole
you left so
why do you wanna come back

gemini
will he? will he know that you like good morning texts but not dry ones, so i always made sure back then to call you beautiful every morning to remind you how perfect you are, you need to know that. you claim you dont like romance movies, but once you watch one, you always tear up at the sad parts, and then end up smiling at the cute ones. you claim you love horror movies and act tough, but you just dont want anyone to know how scared you are, so i always made sure to hug onto you tightly. you say you hate winter because of the icy roads and how cold it is, but wont hesitate to play outside in the snow. you have a total of 27 moles on your back, all of them looking like a night sky, each mole as a tiny star twinkling in the darkness. you always got shy whenever i compliment them, kissed or caressed them.
on june 13th 2020, on my birthday, we went to watch the starts at the end of our date. you brought us to an empty hill where everything was visible. the town which looked small and the clear sky painted with stars. as soon as you got out of the car you exclaimed ''look at the starts looks like it's pouring diamonds!!''. since then, every single night we went to the small hit for our star date to watch the diamonds pour, and every time, i couldn't take my eyes off you because of your gorgeousness under the black sky. your starbucks order is always the same, a pink drink one scoop of matcha and vanilla cold foam on top, but during fall season, you always switch it to pumpkin spice lattes, which you hate, but drink to feel in season. you collect seashells, but only gorgeous ones because its what interests you. your favorite day is thursday, but only because its the day before friday, meaning movie nights comes sooner.
august 15th 2021 you gave me a matching glass butterfly bracelet, you wore yours everyday, but i never had mine on my wrist, that made you sad only because i wasn't wearing it. but a few weeks later when you asked me to buy you a plushie, i asked you to give me my wallet, and when you opened it, the bracelet fell out and snapped and the glass shattered, it made you sad because you thought i didnt care for it, you brought it to me and apologized for breaking it. i was a little upset but i couldn't stay mad at you. we made up, watched our movie in the cinema, we both went to our homes. i spend weeks putting together the glass beads, but instead of making it into the bracelet again, i used it for our anniversary gift to make you that necklace and then we switched jewelry. you gave me your bracelet, and i gave you the necklace, remember? you never took it off, and that's something i love about you. you never get tired of the same old same old. that's why i knew you'd never get tired of me.
your loyalty is truly beautiful fourth. so if anyone can recognize all of that, then he's the one for you.

fourth
stop it please|
fuck off
if you still love me why did you hurt me

gemini
because we never seemed to stay together. every time we found our way back to each other, it would end up starting over just for the same ending.

fourth
i guess, we can never stay away from each other

gemini
i love you.

fourth
i still wear the necklace
seen now

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''P-Phuwin....w-what d-did you t-tell G-Gemini??'' Fourth said on the phone while crying really hard while trying to speak. Hardly talk. Lots tears.

''Fourth, what's wrong and why do you call me at 3am?? Gemini? I didn't even speak with him.'' Phuwin stated in a sleepy whispering voice.

''H-He literally t-told me you told h-him something...Please, stop lying to me...''

''Fourth, listen. Why are you talking to him again in the first place? And me? Seriously? I never liked him so why would I talk to him? It seems like he is lying to you again.''

''A-Are you telling me...'' Fourth's sobs are getting stronger.

''It looks like, Fourth. It looks like.''