Painful Love (IDOLISH7)

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It was time for the concert and Riku was in line, he was already nervous. He already wanted to back out and leave, from what Riku could tell that he was probably the only guy here.

That made the teen mumble, a group of girls were talking "I wonder what songs they are going to sing?" A girl asked her friends "I'm not sure but I hope they sing a new song." Another girl tells her friends.

Riku just ignored them 'I could never bring myself to listen to any of Tenn-nii songs...' Riku thought to himself as he realized he was now next, so he showed his tickets. "Oh you also have a backstage pass to meet TRIGGER. Well once the concert ends...." The security guard was telling him where to go after the concert.

All Riku could do was nod, he went to find a place to sit and wait. "I can't believe I'm actually here..." Riku mumbles irritatedly to himself, Riku became lost in thought now.

Before he realized the lights became dim "Hello everyone!" Riku looked up when he heard the voice he hasn't heard in years "...Tenn-nii..." Riku whispered quietly while looking at his older twin brother.

"We're glad you all came to hear us!" It was Ryuu that spoke now "Are you ready for tonight concert!" Gaku shouted as girls were yelling happily "We're glad to hear that, now here is our first song to start off." Tenn tells them all.

TRIGGER started their performances, Riku listened to them especially to Tenn's voice. The fangirls were screaming and cheering for them especially Tenn 'I use to be your number one fan...Tenn-nii...' Riku thought to himself.

Riku bit his lower lip to stop himself from cheering like back then, he didn't want to cheer. Memories of the time Tenn performed for Riku popped up as he was smiling and Riku clapped and giggled.

"OMG! TENN KUJO ANGEL SMILE!!"

"HE'S SO PERFECT ESPECIALLY WHEN HE'S SMILING!"

Girls close to Riku were yelling that out as he watched "...Liar..." Riku whispered to himself as he knew that Tenn smile was an act. After all from what he heard from Ryo and a few other friends is that Tenn stage image is being an angel.

After two hours passed, the concert was over as Riku headed backstage to get it over with. Riku was waiting "I heard a fan bought a backstage ticket to meet us." Riku could hear their voices "It's been awhile since someone bought one because it's very expensive."

"Let's not keep them waiting Gaku and-" Riku looked up to meet Tenn eyes who paused. Riku wanted to laugh at that look "Tenn?" Ryuu tried snapping Tenn out of his thoughts. Gaku looked at Riku "Do you know Tenn?" Gaku asked Riku.

Hearing that made Riku want to laugh 'Of course he wouldn't tell them about me...after all he abandoned the Nanase name and...me...' Riku thought to himself as he forced a smile. "No...I'm here as a fan to meet you after all." Riku lied to them.

Ryuu smiled at Riku "Oh then it's nice to meet a fan." Ryuu says nicely, Tenn stared at Riku "Yes, I'm Riku Nanase by the way." They introduced themselves and talked, Riku got their autographs and an album of their songs.

They shook hands but Riku managed to slip Tenn a note as Gaku and Ryuu didn't notice. Riku left but he waited outside for Tenn "I wonder if Tenn-nii will come..." Riku says to himself.

Inside

Tenn finished dressing, he grabbed his bag and looked at his group mates. "I'll be going now, I have somewhere to go." Tenn tells Ryuu and Gaku as they looked at him. "Okay but what about your birthday dinner?" Ryuu asked Tenn.

The TRIGGER center spoke up "I'll be there so don't worry." Tenn walked out as Ryuu and Gaku looked at each other "I'm worried." Gaku says to Ryuu as he nodded "Same." The two decided to follow Tenn.

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After following Tenn for ten minutes he stopped "Ah. You actually came Tenn-nii..." Gaku and Ryuu poked their heads out as they saw who Tenn was meeting "Riku." Tenn says his name.

Gaku whispered to Ryuu "Isn't that the fan that was backstage?" Ryuu nodded at Gaku and whispered back "Yeah that's him." The two decided to listen on the conversation.

"Tenn-nii." Riku once again says as the two stared at each other "So it really is you Riku..." Tenn mumbles but Riku heard him "So you didn't think it was me even after I said my name." Riku says to Tenn.

Tenn shook his head "I didn't mean it like that...it's been awhile and I didn't recognize you." Tenn says to Riku, that stung Riku a little because the person he loves so much barely recognized him. "That's what happens...people grow up..."

Those words felt like knives to Tenn, he didn't know what to say. Riku gazed wandered, he didn't go there to yell at Tenn and cause a huge scene especially after a concert. He came to properly say goodbye and burn the bridge for good.

"...You and your friends were really good..." Riku paused for few seconds "This was actually the first time I really heard TRIGGER songs." Riku added in as Tenn looked at him "Thank you, Ryuu and Gaku would be happy to hear that too."

Tenn gaze shifted "I didn't expect to see you...have you attended our other concerts...?" Tenn decided to ask Riku, he rub his elbow awkwardly "No...even if I wanted to...I wouldn't be able to because I wasn't in Japan..." Riku tells Tenn.

That got Tenn attention "You weren't?" He looked at Riku "I studied aboard for a few years." Riku answered Tenn "Oh when did you leave?" Tenn asked Riku, he spoke "Three years ago, I got an offer and it was a good opportunity so I took it."

Hearing that Riku wasn't even there for his debut hurt him that it was noticeable on his face. Riku honestly felt satisfaction from seeing him like that 'Good feel hurt.' Riku thought to himself.

"Oh...well have you been taking your medicine?" Tenn regained his composure as he asked but something in Riku snapped. "Enough." Riku says as Tenn looked surprised by Riku tone "Riku."

Riku sighed "You don't have to pretend to care about me anymore." Hearing that made Tenn flinch as he wanted to say something but Riku continued "I came here to tell you that I don't need you anymore. I really do miss you Tenn-nii but..." Riku paused for a second then continued "I realized that I needed to grow up so I came here to see you. I won't cling onto you anymore, I was a burden after all."

Tenn eyes widened at that "Riku that's not-no I mean." He was trying to figure out the right words, Riku turned around as his back faced Tenn. "No need to lie to me Tenn-nii, that's why you chose to leave right. You don't need to lie to me because I know that I was a burden."

"No, you were never a burden to me Riku! You were never a burden to me at all!" Tenn yelled trying to grab Riku arm but Riku slapped it away "Don't touch me!" He shouted making Tenn flinch and his eyes widened, it really surprised him.

Riku clenched his fist "If I wasn't a burdened then why did you abandoned our family! No why did you have to abandon me!" Riku yelled at Tenn, he was speechless he didn't know how to answer Riku.

Riku started coughing but he stepped away from Tenn "This is goodbye...Tenn-nii..." Riku says as he ran from Tenn "RIKU!" But he didn't stop at all, Tenn fell to his knees as he only could watch Riku disappear from his sight.

To be continued