Reflections- a series of poems

Again...

You've been here before

You know what you did

You got out

But

Then you returned

Just like the last time

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

You know what to do

But you found no strength within you to do it

You know you have the strength to do it

You're not stupid

Because like just like before

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

You eventually found it

The strength you've been missing

Now all you have to do is wait

But

Why does that part hurt so much

You know you'll leave this place eventually

You know you won't stay here long

You know that eventually things will get better

You know that you will simply forget about this whole thing

But

Why

Why does it ache

Why does every second ache

You're not stupid

You know that

But you feel like it

You know that there's hope

But it feels like there isn't

You know this labyrinth has an exit

But if feels like there isn't

You know that there are people in your life that make you happy

But it seems like there isn't

It's not their fault

You know that

You're not stupid

You have this fight in your head

You feel sad

But you feel terrible for being sad

You don't feel well

But you feel like you're not supposed to

You show who you are

But you feel embarrassed doing it

You don't know what to do

You aspire and adore other people

But feel cringe every time you do so

But you know it would end

Just like the time before

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

Soon, you'll just sleep it off

Just like the time before

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

You don't know why it happens

You don't know why you feel that way

All you know

Is that it just happens

Just like before

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that

And the time before that