i find myself running home to you

(i'm convinced you're an angel sent) chapter 4

Weeks have passed, it's been a month since you're here. You've only contacted your parents two times or so since that, not really wanting to talk to them and destroy the bliss Yujin has managed to build within you. She came into your life swiftly and changed your world upside down in a matter of a month. You were scared at first, how fast everything's happening. How she's made you feel a plethora of feelings in a matter of a month, after years of feeling nothing at all.

That had you wondering, if you were too afraid to pursue it, when is ever the right time?
For years you've been accustomed to the void attached to your heart, everyday desperate to get rid of it. Yujin just magically appears and is trying her absolute best to be there for you, so why are you running from the thing you've craved for? You think back on all the times Yujin made you feel whole, feel like you're special.

The time when you couldn't reach the top shelf, bless your height, she helped you immediately, your heart frantically racing as your back grazed slightly against her chest?  The time when you were gone to fetch art supplies half across the building and scrape your knee with so many things blocking your vision and that one rock spawning right under your right foot. She came looking for you and the sight of your bleeding knee almost had her panicking (well she sort of did), cleaned up your wound and helped you to the dorm?

When she found you crying one night alone in the secluded part of camp and hugged you without pushing you to open up?(you did anyway and that too surprised you). The hug that lasted until you've managed to compose yourself and tell her everything, only noise being your sniffles and her thumb brushing your cheek softly.

Your poor heart is still standing strong from a cardiac arrest, at the same time she made you feel whole. A Yujin sized hole is there, you're sure. Today was no different. All the students were seated on the cloth spreaded on the field, gathering colourful strings and other supplies you may need. Today was focused on completing a piece of macrame art. As usual, Yujin and you were naturally together, growing fond of each other and working together these past few weeks.

All of you had begun, knotting colourful fabrics together and composing each unique pattern. It was healing, doing this and having Yujin near you. You glanced at her to check on the progress, the sight of her tongue poking out as usual and brows etched together in concentration. "Woah, that looks good. Never knew you had it in you An" you said and smirked slightly.

She tore her eyes from the piece and looked at you coyly before adding "Why thank you, I'm flattered" she grinned cheekily and placed her hand on her chest. You laughed at that and her eyes brightened at that, loving that melody.

You both continued and took another hour or two to complete both your pieces. The glasses boy, whose name you learned was James, finished his and looked proud, waving his piece between his fingers. It was leaflets knotted beautifully into colours of turquoise, white and brown. You gave him a thumbs up and he smiled kindly at you, mouthing a thank you. James made his way over, you've gotten a little close to him too, aside from Yujin.

James had incredibly similar taste with you regarding music and movies, he specifically expressed his love for romcoms. You both talked a lot and occasionally Yujin would join you.

Though you did notice, whenever James blushed a little at your praises she'd look a little upset, as if she was fighting the twinge of envy. Jealousy? Oh this girl has no clue what she does to you. You also can't stand the sad eyes that were displayed whenever that happened, you never wish to make her sad. You desired to see the gleam in her eyes forever and get lost staring into them.

"Hey guys! Wow, both of yours look like they belong in a museum" James remarked, inspecting your pieces closely and you laughed slightly, hitting his shoulder slightly at the silly comment. "Thanks, yours is great too" Yujin confessed, the familiarity of the eyes coming back and you noticed it immediately. "What are your plans for tomorrow by the way?" James asked out of curiosity.

The camp had a one-day-off policy to allow students to refresh their minds and contact their parents or any loved ones as the phones were allowed the whole day tomorrow.

"Oh there's no exclusive plans, but I did promise to watch 'Forrest Gump' with Yujin tomorrow" you said, glancing at Yujin and smiling sweetly, looking forward to tomorrow. She agreed and smiled back at you, resisting the urge to kiss your cheek upon seeing your little dimple poking at your right side. "Oh that's a killer movie. I also planned to watch 'Bad Boys' with someone tomorrow".

Yujin failed to notice, but you didn't. You noticed how James was blushing a pretty pink. The "someone" James had been crushing on since the first day of camp, a certain brown-eyed, sand-coloured hair boy named Adam.

James had told you about Adam one night when you were chatting away, not yet associated with Yujin as today. You could see how James genuinely liked the guy and the little things he mentioned about what Adam did made him a flustered mess. You giggled at his confession and hugged him, told him you were proud of him and how he should totally make a move, as Adam was obviously too nervous to do so.

You grinned at James knowingly, raising an eyebrow that made James chuckle and smacked your side slightly, which made you yelp as you were sensitive at the ribs. "Excuse me, I have to use the washroom" Yujin mumbled and practically bolted towards the restroom, which left you a little confused as you watched her figure disappear down the hall.

"You should probably go after her," James said, popping a grape in his mouth. You then turned to him, confused as ever. "Girl are you that blind? God you're worse than me" he chuckled which made you smack his shoulder. "I mean seriously, I was just waiting for my face to explode from how much she was stari-no glaring at me" Brows turned into a frown before realisation dawned on you. No way.

"Um, yes way. Hurry along now" You didn't even realise you had said that out loud. You excused yourself and made your way to the restroom down the hall, opening the door. The left stall was occupied and the other was empty, you locked the door behind you and softly knocked on the occupied stall.