i find myself running home to you

(you are too well tangled in my soul) chapter 8

It was dinner time when Yujin called you to meet at the spot, her face made you a little uneasy as she looked a little upset, but you tried not to think too much about it and continued eating, which was difficult, your appetite long gone. You suspected something was wrong, earlier in the morning she went out to receive a call. The face she returned with was somber, something's definitely wrong.

You walked towards the spot and spotted Yujin already waiting there for you. You sat beside her and gave her a chaste kiss on her lips "Hi baby, what's up? Is everything okay?" you asked softly as you waited for her answer. She smiled at you, though it wasn't like the normal ones, this one lacked a little in enthusiasm.

"Hey baby, I just wanted to talk to you about something" she patted her thighs, signalling you to sit on her lap. You complied immediately, wondering where she is going with this. Thousands of questions raced through your mind but you patiently waited for her to speak.

She took a moment to stare at your eyes, thumbs brushing against your stomach lovingly. It was a long moment before she spoke. "I'm moving to the States. New York to be exact" You looked at her, confused on this statement. "My family called this morning, apparently my dad was being promoted in his job and he was offered a spot in New York and took it. We'll be living with my grandma there, she's been there for years".

She finally looked at your eyes, it was filled with confusion, eyes getting a little teary.
You found your voice after a long moment. "You-you're leaving?" You gulped hard, pushing the lump that was beginning to form in your throat. It was painful. "When? Like right after camp? That fast?" you questioned, panic slowly rising.

She looked sad when she nodded "Right after camp. We're leaving the afternoon when I arrive." You felt your heart shattering at that. A tear finally escaping your eyes and Yujin being Yujin, always there to catch it.

"I- I don't know what to say. We were just planning the other day on how we were gonna be out in the open, the plans we made?" She looked like a kicked puppy when she cupped your cheeks. "I'm sorry. I'm really truly sorry. I had no idea about this-" her voice cracked at that "I tried to persuade them, but it's too late."

You couldn't hold it in any longer, sobs wrecking your body. Camp was ending in two weeks. That meant you only had two weeks before she's away forever across the globe, thousands of miles away from you. That thought alone had you launching forward, hugging her so tight.

She pulled you closer and hugged you just as tight. She couldn't even blame her family, they've been waiting for this opportunity since Yujin was nine years old.

Your whole body shakes as sobs escape your lips, her heart shattered into a million pieces at the soon, tears soon dropping from her own eyes. "Th-this isn't fair a-at all. I only have two more weeks with you. How is that f-fair?" you managed to say, struggling to gather air into your lungs.

She immediately pulled back and stared at you, eyes full of worry. "Baby breath. It's okay, you're okay. Breath with me" You reluctantly followed, eyes blurring with haziness and tears. Minutes passed, your sobs subsided but tears couldn't stop flowing.

You both changed the position , both of you laying on the bench, you against her front. Your head rested on her chest, listening to her heartbeat. Both of your eyes were swollen from crying, cheeks flushed.

"I really don't want you to go." Your voice was small, tired and scared of the thought of her leaving forever. "I know baby, I know. I really wish this isn't happening, that I could stay here forever with you" she said slowly, running her hand through your hair softly, your eyes grew heavy at that but you fought it. Then stay. Please. It was at the tip of your tongue, but never came out, not trying to make it harder than it already is.

This summer was something you've searched for your entire life. Yujin was everything your heart searched for to fill the void. Yujin wasn't just something, wasn't just anyone, wasn't just enough, she was everything.

You were going to be strong and not waste a single second the next two weeks. You had this sudden urge of confidence that you both will eventually work something out together. You and Yujin always worked well together. You both were gonna be okay. You decided to push the sadness away and cherish the next two weeks with her.

You tilted your head up, meeting her eyes. They were missing their usual spark but there were remnants, it was there and only there for you. "We're gonna make these next two weeks worth it. We're gonna push all the sad thoughts away and enjoy each other's company every second, okay? I love you too much to waste this remaining time I have left with you. We'll figure something out in the future, we always do so don't worry about that okay?" You were surprised on how serious and stable you sounded but you meant every word.

"Okay. Okay we will. I love you so much" Yujin whispered as she kissed you lovingly, lips lingering longer than usual. "We'll be okay." "We'll be okay" you repeated, a sacred promise.