Entwined

Confronting Shadows

This small city is quite warm. All year long, really. It seems like the sun wouldn't let go of here. Afraid that winter wouldn't suit the city, wouldn't do it right. Sol, the God sun, can be pretty protective over its things.

The beauty of the golden cover that the sun puts over the fields around me, the perfection of the scenery couldn't be more emblematic; as it graciously added a part of my weakness to the air around me.

There is one scent I deeply cherish. The smell of jasmine flowers. I love everything about that flower: its scent, its taste, its blooming time, nearly everything around its existence. It was softly brushing past my nostrils, bringing back memories of a past one-sided love affair. My loneliness at that moment brought so much silence into my soul, I could hear my heart make a very familiar sound. There was a time when even the jasmine smell couldn't fix the pieces of my shattered heart.

Was I naïve? Weak? Stupid? Easy? Giving? Hopeful?

I guess that I was all those combined.

I was in love.

I fell in love, just for me to realize, too late, that I fell alone.

Just like a fallen angel. Heart first. Head after.

Honestly, I will never get over him. I really loved him and gave him everything. Thinking back at it, he never took me seriously. We never even dated. I labeled all aspects of our nonexistent relationship; it was like dating one of your imaginary characters, the only difference was that this one was real and not really following your scenarios.

"Enough," I said to myself.

I am not going to ruin my vacation over past mistakes.

It's fine, I can fall back in love again.

I think.

I arrived at our cottage house. My parents were sunbathing in the garden.

"Here you are!" said mom

"Hi mom, is Silas here?" I asked

"No, he also didn't come back," she responded

I didn't give it much thought and went to my room. Changed to comfy clothes and laid down in my bed.

The sound of the apricot leaves was a great lullaby. I fell asleep in no time.

The feeling of the sheets on my skin seduced my soul to stay longer, but I know that I lost enough time sleeping. My senses slowly waking up and getting a hold of their surroundings. My eyes trying to unblur the view, my ears receiving some noise from the kitchen and garden, indicating that there were guests on the first floor.

I groaned at the unpleasant presence of extra people during my vacation, but then again my parents were extremely outgoing. Friends came over all the time.

I stretched on my bed and sat up, only to see Hugo sitting on my pouf. What in the name of a one-sided love story comeback is this?

"What the f***k, you're doing in my room?" I said

"Gracious as always," he said

Oh, I didn't miss this voice, not in the least. I wonder why all unpleasant people in my life keep coming back and showing up unexpectedly.

"Get out!" I said harshly

He stood up and sat on the edge of my bed.

"I can see that you've moved on," he said while pointing at a small uncovered part on my breast.

"Ow, didn't see this love bite," I thought.

A grin formed on my face.

"Of course, I did. You're really still full of yourself, aren't you?" I said while I left the bed, walking to my cupboard.