- Reloaded - Not His World Anymore

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In an instant, everything you held dear to your heart was gone, torn away from you with the force that could tear apart the whole world. Nothing was left, not even the smallest sliver of life or love that you had once experienced. Maybe this time, things would be different. If you had tried to express these feelings you harbored towards him, he would look back at you differently. Such pointless words may truly change the course of time, maybe they'll lead to something better. As fate turns and laughs at you, there's a burning flame sparked within your soul that even through the hundreds of timelines, was never there before.

Your gaze had become hollow through all of it, life just slowly ticking away as you become entangled in the puppet strings that forced words and actions out of you. Sing and shout these feelings until the newly lit fire in your soul burns itself away into nothing once more. Don't let this story be forgotten, unknown to all as it allows itself to be destroyed. Moving closer, maybe you'd grasp his heart this time, barely managing to shed yourself of the past pains not even he remembered. If you could plead with all these emotions that became meaningless within the endless multiverse with your heart that tears itself to shreds every time you push yourself off to the side and allow them all to die, would you? When you previously couldn't talk and swallowed down the words stuck in your throat, would you now scream them out in a dazed attempt to save them? 

If you're once again pushed off to the side and left on the line between life and death, could you find it within your heart to sing the song of love you never had the courage to let out before? Would he truly see you then, instead of looking through you? Just one more time, would it be okay to try finding another side of the story? One last sign of life, stuck within the voice you left behind the last time. Heart breaking itself into the smallest slivers as if it were a shattered mirror, it now burns stronger than any other. If this small change in your own behavior really managed to alter anything, who, then, would he meet at the end of it all? This pain you'd endured, surely hiding it all made it sting all the more? Your heart's been a cage you unknowingly built by hiding this pain and overwhelming emotions towards him. If absolutely nothing else, you had to create an outlet for it all this time. Even if you'd grown to take it all, the breaking of your heart again and again, doesn't mean it isn't damaging. If anything, the fact you'd been hiding it all only serves to tighten the vines around your heart as the thorns inject their poison. 

Don't be left like that again. Though even if you survive this time, could you really learn to love this world around you, a world that you wished to take back control of? To think you'd grow to shoulder the feelings that nobody ever wishes for out of care for the people you held dear. Give the world one more chance, and ignite the cold universe. Burn it away into a new world after enduring the cold for too long. As it all goes white again, you can't help but feel that this time really would be something different. It illuminates a better future, and you have to become the spearhead for it. 

Having fallen into a deep love without rhyme or reason, it felt that this was the only thing truly left for you. It slowly enveloped and took control of your thoughts and feelings, growing more powerful with each passing day. Staring at the place deep beneath his eyes, maybe this time there will be someone to love within his soul. Not like that would happen.

One more time, just one more. All the colors made from the glowing white slowly form back the life you knew when it was all the same. Time in itself is finite, even in this loop of death and rebirth that you had grown to live in. This time, maybe you'll find the way out. To barely even reach him is to finally, truly reach and grasp his heart. To remain complacent or fight is your choice to make. But you've already made this choice, haven't you? 

Repeating again, over and over in an attempt to break free of this cycle had been in vain up until this very second as your wounds healed as if there was nothing there at all. The tears staining your face had begun to dry, body mending itself as the colors swirled around you to remake the place where it all started. Your body shrunk, effectively de-aging you back into your child self as you stood in what would become the field where your "father" gave you up to the cruel scientist pulling the strings in the world that never belonged to him. With the newfound flame in your soul, the idea of joining the royal guard to protect him had become a possibility. This time, maybe you'd stand a chance. If your only goal is to protect one life, to save one life from burning out, then that mission would quickly be completed upon realizing that his heart would also continue to burn with a need to live happily with you. 

Each time the tears would burn your eyes and face, remember your mission. Can't you see how far you've come? Even as these tears overflow from your eyes, keep looking forward at him, hoping that this time things would be different. His eyes reflect the stars you'd one day go on to recreate in a world that is truly yours. Much like the monster who was pulling the strings on this world, you didn't belong here either. This world isn't his, nor is it yours to own and control. That would be up to the princes. Not to say you couldn't help, but it truly wasn't your world. 

The sun shone brightly in your eyes as you stood in the field of gold and purple flowers, the gently warm breeze tickling your hair against your face. There he stood, eyes meeting yours with an indescribable look that managed to convey so many more emotions than before.