Ella De Jesus
I'm here at the memorial, Binibisita si Jessie
It was his ash na nandito
"h-hi, my love... I-I'm sorry... I-I'm sorry a-anak, I-I...I-I wasn't there.... I-I'm sorry,I should h-have known. I-I'm sorry hindi kita nailigtas... I-I'm sorry, n-naging p-pabaya ako. H-hindi pa n-nagigising si m-mommy mo, t-tapos si kuya J-jordi, he's been experiencing t-trauma... I-I'm sorry, f-for l-letting this h-happen... I-I'm sorry, anak" I cried
Napa upo naman ako sa tapat ng puntod niya
Wala namang magagawa yung sorry ko eh
Kasi, kahit anong sorry ko, hindi na siya babalik
Jessie will never come back
We lost him for good, and I couldn't even do anything about his loss
Ngayon, hindi ko alam kung paano ko haharapin si Jema
Alam na nila papa and my parents
Sila na yung nag babantay kina Jordan and Jema
"Tapos ka na?" It was Alyssa
Alyssa has been with me, since We got into the hospital
She witnessed all of my tears flowing down through my eyes
all of my sorry
She's been comforting me, And saying encouraging things
"Let's go, Sabi ni tito balik na tayo doon" She said
I kissed my hands and slowly traced it on his Tomb
"I-I love y-you, my little J-jessie..." I said
I felt Alyssa's hand on my shoulders
"Let's go, Ells. You need some rest" Sambit ni Alyssa
"N-no, ly... ibalik mo ako sa hospital, kailangan ako ng mag ina ko" I said
"Tsk, ang laki na ng eyebags mo oh? at tsaka, andun naman na sina sina tito at tita... halika na" She said
"Hindi ka ha talaga nakaka intindi? Okay pa ako oh, Tumatayo pa... Ibalik mo na ako sa mag ina ko kasia kailangan nila ako!" Singhal ko
It's my first time being this angry
Nagulat naman si Alyssa
I quickly looked away and let my tears flow
"J-just...I-ibalik mo nalang ako sa, h-hospital ly" i stuttered
Jema Galanza
I woke up feeling thirsty
"P-pa?" bungad ko
I saw papa, Mafe, bea, Daddy and mommy here
Nasa... Hospital ako
and then, I remembered everything Dali dali akong bumangon
Kaya pinigilan ako kaagad ni Mafe
"A-ano ba! y-yung m-mga bata" Sambit ko
"A-ate...w-wala na s-si... W-wala na si J-jessie" napatigil naman ako sa sinabi niya
Hindi...Hindi totoo
"M-mommy" napa lingon ako sa left side ko
"J-jordan M-matthew, a-anak" I said
"A-asan si Jessie?"I asked
"W-wala na siya, Jessica... Nawalan ako ng isang apo" papa said in a sad voice
Napa iling naman ako sa sinabi nila
"H-hindi, h-hindi totoo yan!" I said
Bigla naman pumasok si Ella
"L-lablab" I cried
nilapitan niya ako at tsaka yumakap sa akin
I felt her tears on me
"I-I'm sorry... l-love" she sobbed
Please don't say it
Don't say it, Jorella
"W-wala na si J-jessie...h-he will n-never c-come b-back" she sobbed
Napa iyak naman ako
Naka uwi na kami, but we were silent.
Ang tahimik ng buong bahay,Not like before
"Lagay ko lang to si kwarto niyo" Mafe said
Nakita kong tumango si Ella
"L-love..."Sambit niya
Hindi ko siya pinansin
lumayo ako sakanya at tsaka pumunta sa kwarto ni Jessie
I locked the door and cried
Jessie, my little one
I'm sorry, wala akong nagawa
I was just carrying you, and I couldn't protect you
The photos of us was still there
Tinignan ko yon, The four of us were smiling
This family will never be the same
Ever, again
I slept kaya diko na namalayan kung anong oras na
1 am na pala, I decided to stay here
Dito muna ako, Kay Jessie
Nanlulumo ako habang tinitignan yung mga pictures
From my 1st ultra sound
Hanggang sa first birthday ni Jordi
Nalungkot naman ako bigla
Napapabayaan ko na si Jordan
I will never be a good parent
Hinahayaan ko lang mawala sakin yung isa kong anak, muntik pang mawala sa akin si Jordan
I sobbed and cried again
Hindi na ata to mawawala
The trauma, and the Pain
Will forever be engraved in my mind
YOU ARE READING
Love You, Doc
RomanceNurse Jema Galanza granted her mother's final wish, and that is to marry Doc Ella De Jesus, the daughter of her mother's Bestfriend