Unavailable Endings

Blue

today is the first time in a long time I have seriously thought about you and maybe its because I remembered you said you where spending spring break with your family or maybe it's because I saw something on the internet that I wanted to send you but couldn't. I have typed out a million things to send you and opened our chats a million times. I find myself still keep promises to you that I know you will never see. I want to reach out but you wouldn't respond. that's life right? I can't bring myself to remove you on snapchat and I can't bring myself to block you on messages. I haven't even tried to delete our pics even though it makes me sad to see them. I miss you and I really want my stuff back. I don't even know how to ask. I have tried but what do I say. you said you wanted to be friends but somehow it's my fault and I don't even know what I did. the truth is nothing. I know that sounds cocky but I did nothing. You have even said so yourself. But you don't love me so what makes it so hard to be my friend. please just give me my stuff back. I am very attached to my stuff and you have it. you said you would never keep my stuff and I want it back. Don't talk to me again that's fine, pretend I don't exist cool I get it but please don't keep my stuff. I am honestly used to it. People leave and the ones we trust the most lie but that's life. I know I shouldn't really be made at you for doing what you think is best for you but I am. I don't care if I don't get the playlist you made or if I never talk to you again, I just really don't like what happened and you ending our friendship on my dead best friends birthday was really not cool. I am really mad about that. Also you got upset about not having anyone who cared but I cared... always did. I hope you get the help you need.