"Do you think that this, us...do you think it could ever be something more?"
"I'm worried that if we go there, things might never be the same."
Fluff, a lil bit of angst ++cute moments
// After graduation, Kazehaya and Sawako just didn't work out...
That day was when I realized my feelings for Minuro. I had a crush on him. But I wish I realized sooner because I abused the love he had for me and acted like I'd didn't know his feelings.
I was no better than his other girlfriends. I might've just been worst.
But the fact I loved him never changed. I just want him to know that.
{ *three weeks earlier* }
Once I got home I tried taking a nap and not thinking about Kazehaya but he kept coming into my head.
I remembered the look on his face when he saw me.
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"Sawako." He says. "Kazehaya..." he walks closer to me.
"I never wanted to hurt you. It was stupid to think I could ever even live without you." He tells me.
I take a step back.
"Kazehaya. You can't come back into my life like this. I'm sorry but...I'm over you." I explain.
Our break up was already two months ago and the amount of time for me to start to feel better was too much. I can't just forgive him for all he's done to me.
"I know and I'm sorry but-" "Sorry doesn't cut it," I start. "You fell out of love with me, you broke up with me. What changed?" I say.
"My feelings changed. I realized I couldn't live without you." I sighed.
I started to remember all the good times we had. At high school, our dates too. But that was high school Sawako. College Sawako is different. And she's interested in someone else.
I started to think that if I did forgive him and we would go back to being together, what would that mean for me and Minoru?
When he thought that Kazehaya was still my boyfriend he looked upset. What did me and Kazehaya being together mean for him?
And why was it that when I saw him that way, is when I decided I wanted nothing to do with Kazehaya.
I wanted to assure him I was single and uninterested in anybody but him. Just like if he had a crush on someone I would be sad.
Is it possible that that was the feeling he spoke of? The urge to always speak to him when I see him? The sensation I get when he smiles and looks at me? The tingling feeling I get when he held my hand that day?
If so, then I should've answered more precisely. And most important if he felt that way like he said. Then it would only make sense that he was trying to tell me something special.
But I didn't understand. Like usual.
I shook my head, to stop all these thoughts rushing into my brain and give my focus to Kazehaya. Just looking at him was me I'm understanding our chapter was over and I can't handle him anymore.
