Not Just a High School Romance (LxLight)

Chapter 6

Light's P.O.V.

Why does Ryuzaki always have to be so difficult?

I punched the wall. I heard the muffled sobs coming from our bedroom and decided to go out.

I need a drink...

I had told myself I wouldn't drink again after what happened last time. Ryuzaki still didn't know about that, but whatever. I got in the car and thought about where I was going to go. An old friend popped into my mind. Probably a bad idea considering what happened...

It won't happen again!

I started the car and took off. I was distracted and I almost hit a few people on the way there, but I made it. Stopping in front of his house, I took a deep breath.

Am I really gonna do this?

I looked up at the window to his apartment and saw the curtain move. I waved and he opened the curtain all the way, waving back. He gestured for me to come up. I got out of my car and walked up the stairs, knocking on his door when I get there.

"Coming!"
The door flew open, revealing my ex- boyfriend, Near.

"Hi, Near..."

He was wearing a loose fitting white button-up pajama shirt and a pair of boxers. This kid has no shame.

"What's up, Light?"

"Can I come in?"

"Yeah, what's going on?"
I sighed,

"It's Ryuzaki."

"Again?" I followed him over to his sofa and sat down, "I told you that you should have left him and come back to me. I could treat you so much better."

He tried to climb onto my lap, but I lightly pushed him away.

"I can't... I..."

He smirked,

"You can't what?"

I let him climb into my lap this time.

"After what happened last time..."

He placed a finger on my lips,

"Shhhh..."

I relaxed and let him kiss me.

I felt guilty. I shouldn't be doing this. This is cheating!

~o0o~

I held Near in my arms after everything was said and done. I was worn out and I didn't want to go home. I knew this wasn't going to make me feel any better. It made me feel worse about the whole situation. I still need a drink. I lightly pushed Near away, careful not to wake him, and walked out to his kitchen. I knew where he kept the liquor, it was third cabinet left of the sink. I poured myself a shot of whiskey and downed it. I thought about everything that had been going on, picking up the bottle and glass, I took my pity party out into the living room. I poured another shot and thought some more.

Why am I doing this?

I knew why. Why was I asking? I was doing this to make a better world for Ryuzaki. I was doing everything for him. I slammed my fist down on the table. God damnit! He was an ungrateful, whiny, bratty teenager! I can't stand him! I took another shot. How could he do this to me? I am God! He can't do this to me! Then the tears started. Why am I doing this to him? If he wanted this then why would he fight it...? What if... I stood up, downed what remained of my shot and headed for the door. Wait! I can't just leave without telling Near anything and he'll be upset if I want to leave in the middle of the night anyway. I better stay here for the night. I walked back over Near's room and laid down. I drew him in close, holding him. I kissed his shoulder and smiled. This would all be over tomorrow.

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Wow! Shitty chapters are the best! I'm sorry this chapter was shit. I'll try to make the next one better. Sorry to disappoint. 

                         With Love, 

                                         Jay