Not Just a High School Romance (LxLight)

Chapter 7

Author's Note

Oh my god!!!! New chapter!!!! I am so excited!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really hope you guys like this! I hope you can forgive me for making you wait so long, but I had a lot of stuff going on! :) I think things are going to slow down now so expect sort of regular updates. 

With Love, 

                       Jay

Ryuzaki's P.O.V.

I didn't know what to do. I had pissed him off again. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just hold it together for 10 minutes? I hit the bed. This is all my fault! I hated myself for pissing him off. He's probably off getting drunk or something and it's all my fault. I needed to stop. I needed to just hold it together until help comes or something. What if help never comes? What if this is the universe punishing me? What had I done? Why do I deserve this? I just need to stop thinking about it. I need to stop thinking altogether and just do what Light tells me.

I heard keys in the lock and looked at the wall clock, 5:00AM. Why is he home so early? I laid down and pretended to be asleep. What could he possibly want? The bedroom door opened, light pooling into the room. I heard him sigh and walk over to the bed. His hand found it's way to my head, lightly stroking and twirling my hair. I shivered and he pulled at the blanket, tucking me in more securely. I heard the sound of a zipper and the rustling of paper. Now might be a good time to open my eyes. I wanted to see what he was doing. I squinted, stretching like I had just woken up. Light looked over at me,

"Morning, sleepyhead."

"Morning"

He set down the papers that he had been rummaging through and sat down on the edge of the bed next to me. I swung my legs over the edge, sitting next to him. He reached for me, pulling me closer into an embrace. He rubbed my back, slow up and down motions meant to soothe and comfort. I leaned into him, giving in. He took and deep breath and began to speak,

"I just want to start off by saying I'm sorry. I know those two words will never make up for the hell that I put you through and you probably don't even love me anymore, but I just wanted to tell you that I did everything that did for a reason. Somewhere in the deep recesses of my mind I believed that what I was doing was correct and I thought you wanted this. I thought I could make you happy with this. I could have never be more wrong. Everything did was for you. I love you, Ryuzaki," I felt a big, wet teardrop hit my head, "I'm not gonna stop what I'm doing, but I'm not gonna hold you captive anymore. You're free to go and do as you please, but don't tell anyone that you know what I'm doing. If you tell anyone that you know what's going on I will not hesitate to kill you. If you chose to leave me here and now you will probably never hear from again. I'm dropping out of college and I'm moving away. I'll be gone in a week. You can have the apartment and everything in it, it's the least I can do."

I tilted my head, a look of utter shock on my face. What? He's leaving?

"Light... I," I didn't know what to say. I didn't know whether to be mad, upset or happy. My emotions were a jumbled mess and I managed to utter some coherent speech, "I still love you, but not this you. I love the old you. I miss being happy and being with you. Like we used to be."

I felt the tears begin to well up and I just let them fall. Not knowing what else to say. I wrapped my arms around him as he pet my hair. I couldn't stop crying and I couldn't just leave him. He needed help and so did I.

"I want the old Light back."

I heard his voice, no louder than a whisper,

"Me too."